Sunday, November 21, 2004
ni hai hao ma?
"How are you?" This three is so easily said out from anyone mouth but it seem so hard for me to even type it out and send to someone now. How pathetic am i now. Because I am the one that caused all this to happen. Sometime I ask myself, "Are you crazy or what?" What I can answer back is that, "I just can't face it!" I have been trying my best to get through it, but I try all kind of ways but in the end I am back to the starting point. I hate myself more than i hate anyone in my life.
I start to make more friends but I had just loss a friend that I didn't wish to loss. Is all my fault. Saying goodbye to a friendsip which i have try so hard to pull back and now i ruin everything. Goodbye~
Looking into my past, the last 18 years, what have I done? Making someone i loved, to hate me now also. sigh~
I came back from camp with a feeling I have not have for quite long. But I don't know am i really ready for it. And with something blocking the way, making me to think twice.
Sign off;
(_.a heart without a soul:)
Untitled
Simple Plan
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
xOOx - 9:57:00 pm
