Whats My Name?:: Jason
Whats My Middle Name?:: Jian
What Nicknames Do I have?:: jsn, pang, hum, sheng, pig, zhu ba jie, etc
Whens My Birthday?:: 14th Aug
How Old am I?:: 18
Whos My Best Friend(s)?:: hmmmmm.... alot la..
Where do I go to School?:: Ngee Ann Poly
What Grade am I in?:: BIO Yr1
What color is My Hair?:: black + some white here and there...
What color Are My Eyes?:: black?
Tall or Short:: average la.. 170 is tall or short?
Smart or Dumb:: average la... still can pass...
Weird or Normal:: weird sometime...
Unique or Original:: unique is good.. but tends to be original...
Am I Athletic?:: nia.... like to run but not one...
Am I a Nerd?:: some ppl think i look like one... -.-
Am I a Good Friend?:: maybe.. maybe not? what do you all think?
Am I Honest?:: 90% Honest 10% Not
Loud or Quiet?:: loud and quiet
Shy or Outgoing?:: outgoing is my character now... used to be shy...
Am I Crazy?:: i am crazy always...
Am I Annoying?:: maybe...
What Kind of Music do I Like?:: anything nice...
Am I Mature for My Age?:: yup but sometime miss to be a child... lol
What is my Favorite Song?:: anything nice = favorite
Whos My Favorite Band?:: Keane + Simple Plan + Jet
Whats My Favorite Color?:: red + orange + black + white
Whats My Favorite Movie?:: alot tooo...
When I get older will I get Married?:: yes, why not....
If So, To Who?:: to the girl in my heart..
Do I have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend?:: nope
If So Whats Their Name?:: dont have how to tell..
Give Me ONE Word that Describes Me:: zhu....


i am super bored... copy and paste from frenster bulletin board.... argh....


xOOx - 8:59:00 pm

It have been a happy week last week until thursday late night. Suddenly I think I have made the right choice this time round. There was alot of things happened last week. I found out that I like someone. I scolded and shouted at my parent for their childish behaviour. I found out that I have a batch of best friends. I gave up one venture and concentrate on the other one. I change quite alot this few weeks.

I have not give peiyi and the group the answer. Is an answer that save the whole friendship. Which I haven't think about it since the incident happened at home. I am always busy, I been trying to find time to go out with them but I can't.

Last thursday, I was happily back from sentosa but my parents just make my happy day into my super angry day. They started to quarrel about things that happened for the past 10+ years, I came out and called my brother out too. That when i can't stand already, I shouted at them and shouted them from bottom to top. My brother also start to scold them after that. Some of you may think I have a happy family but I don't. For the past how many years, they just will quarrel in or out of the house. I hate them.

Shall not talk about it. On friday, timon birthday. Didn't have the mood, but i still went to sentosa to celebrate for him. Yichao and me brought a cute condom and one box of normal on for him. What we did on that day, you shall find out yourself.

Saturday, went to school to pass peiying her birthday present. After that, went to town to meet milton and rongjun to go STIX to check up the rack over there. Did some configuration to the switch, but still cannot connect to the connection. So we made our way to Sim Lim to ask for help but it seem that the switch is alright. Then, Milton called the support to ask it is then we found out that we need to configure all the IPs, Gateways ourselves with the list given to us. We brought some LAN wire back to make it neater at the rack. Test the network with my labtop and it look fine to me. Went to the pantray, and we talk about the business. It is when I make my mind to give up the other venture. I took over the contract over there, did the payment and took out the server. Did OT that day. Brought the server back to STIX and put into the rack. Everything was done, and it is already 10pm. Took a cab home, lazy to take bus.

Sunday, have durm lesson in the afternoon and its my brother's birthday. Got a T-shirt at F-Men after my durm lesson and went to jurong point to meet him for dinner. My hated parents went to wedding dinner. Have Fish&Co for dinner. Then shop around with him. That my whole week of happy but sad, good but bad week.

-hopes-


xOOx - 6:12:00 pm



it is fate when you know some friends... and only a small number of them will only understand you.... for it i call them my best friends.... thanks man....

_________

Perfect
Simple Plan

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect



xOOx - 1:54:00 pm



I HATE MY PARENTS.... THEY SUCK TO THE CORE.... FUCK THEM.... FUCK FUCK FUCK.... DON'T COME AND DULAN ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!


xOOx - 1:45:00 am



I have a chat with peiyi just now. sigh. I don't know what to do next. She is the reason I have been giving in so much for this group of friends. She was right I don't wish to break this friendship and I don't want to. I don't what have happened to me, I'm thinking off this few days. I can felt that something big going to happen and its bad. Now, I can't sleep, its like yesterday but at least i force myself to bed yesterday. Not today. I don't know why.

My msn nick put sleeping because i don't wan anyone to disturb me. I watched The Incredibles just now on my labtop, funny movie. Trying to laugh during to funny part but I can't. Just thinking what have happened. Tears was running round my eyes, how weak am I. And this is me, I'm soft and easily affected.

sigh. I don't know what should i do? I keep listening to Simple Plan - Untitled, is like a song for dilemma. Look like the situation i having now.

_.sign off:
(=-=dilemma=-=)


xOOx - 2:03:00 am



I'm sick of explaining this, and hearing explaination anymore. Friends come friends go, maybe you all are the one that goes. Or i should say i am the one who left. That all i wish to say, I don't blame whose fault is it, I just treated it is mine. If you think that I'm the one who break that trust or should i say bond. Talking more about it just spliot my day, I not a kid anymore. I don't say friend or don't friend this kind of thing. I just think we once know each other that fate already, if you all can't beleive about this fate then I shall not to. I have been believing that 4 of us will go on long enough but for now I only picture only 3 of you and I not there. If you all think that you can't trust me then some secret i have been hidden in me shall have risen long ago.

You 3 can happily go have fun and I don't wish to care anymore. Fuck care.....

_________________

_.22 Nov 2004: I went to gym with chao today. Meet him at Clementi at 11:30. Some normal weight training here and there. Train until about 1pm going to 2pm, then did some wash up and have lurch at one of coffee shop out there. I called Darius after seeing 2 missed call by him, but I got an unpleasant reply that spliot my mood. I shall not talk about it, he and his group should know what is it. After lurch, went to orchard to get timon birthday present. Shouldn't say what is that. Timon, you will know on friday.

After getting it, when window shopping with Yichao. Went Paragon Quiksilver shop and look at shorts. I saw one of the sweater that i like alot, but quite expensive. I'm broke. We moved on to Heeren and look around. We took bus down to Penisular Plaza and he brought me to this few shop, the shirts and shorts are my taste, tempted to get them. Maybe next week, I will come down again with him to shop for them.

Went to bugis after that, walk around bugis street and Bugis junction. Then sat down at mos for a drink because i need to wait for milton to go Sim Lim Square to get the switch. So I and yichao there talk cock. Then after that i went to meet milton and got theswitch and i went to bugis street to shop alone and I saw a bag, when the guy introduce I straight away like it. I asked for a red but out of stock, then got my next colour, orange. Suddenly i remember something, why i like orange also because of someone. sigh. Forget it. Got the orange one and transfered everything over to that bag, i don't want to carry a big pastic bag around. After that took bus 67 back home.

_.23 Nov 2003: I woke up at 7:30am. Get change and get ready to go out and meet milton and rongjun at comcentreIII. Did the mounting of the switch at the rack. And went to the pantray and talk cock after that. All about tiger(only 3 of us know what is that), business, servers, etc. And after that I went home and rot until now.


My new bag... ^-^


picture of shirt and shorts i brought a few weeks ago..


picture of me... fake simile because i not feeling good today...

xOOx - 3:55:00 pm



I don't want to care liao..... FUCK CARE!!!!!! If this so, don't ever come talk to me then. Friends also need to hide, then fuck off this friendship then. 2 years and i got all this shit, I don't know what to say. I don't wish to care anymore.


xOOx - 10:46:00 pm



"How are you?" This three is so easily said out from anyone mouth but it seem so hard for me to even type it out and send to someone now. How pathetic am i now. Because I am the one that caused all this to happen. Sometime I ask myself, "Are you crazy or what?" What I can answer back is that, "I just can't face it!" I have been trying my best to get through it, but I try all kind of ways but in the end I am back to the starting point. I hate myself more than i hate anyone in my life.

I start to make more friends but I had just loss a friend that I didn't wish to loss. Is all my fault. Saying goodbye to a friendsip which i have try so hard to pull back and now i ruin everything. Goodbye~

Looking into my past, the last 18 years, what have I done? Making someone i loved, to hate me now also. sigh~

I came back from camp with a feeling I have not have for quite long. But I don't know am i really ready for it. And with something blocking the way, making me to think twice.

Sign off;
(_.a heart without a soul:)

Untitled
Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me


xOOx - 9:57:00 pm





I'm back from my 3D2N adventure. This LSCT camp was a memorable one. We get to know our fellow GLs more and our seniors too. Suddenly, I got that bond i used to have when I'm NCC. Alot of things happened during the camp. The most unforgetable will be the SCANDAL of Su Kwan and Bernard. Those who didn't join and come for the camp should regret.


The GLs family have been giving scandal around. I once gotten in and I'm out of it. Lets me post something about the last 3days. The first day usually all of the campers will look tired but after some games all of us get used to life there and we start having fun. First, was some ice breaker game where we get to know our group members.

Then we have our lurch cook by Eugene, our boss. Even though it is abit too oily but its nice. After lurch, we have a another few group games at land and sea. There it come our group teamwork and spirits come. Time flys whenever we are having fun. Its time for dinner after this 2 games. Its field cooking, it has been ages when i last did my field cooking. But for us, we didn't cook our instant noodles, we ate it raw. Because of this, the SGLs keep coming and say, "are sure you going to eat this only?". all came to ask us this question. LOL

After dinner we have night games, this where the scandal of su kwan and bernerd started. I would not tell you what happened during this game. We have game until about 10+ at night. And we went back to bunk area and prepare for Tribal Concil. That night after summaries the day off, we have a singing session. The SGLs sang a song for us, it is a nice song but i forget what is that title. We sing-a-along with it. After that we sang "On The Top of World" and we ended this session. We went back to bunk area and start our washing up. Lights off at 1am. I can't really sleep that day, because it was so hot and noisy. Noises caused by the SGLs out at kitchen area. I know that I kept waking up through the night.

Woke up at 7am and went to do some wash up. Have our breakfast and we went to the field to have our first game of the day. WATER BOMB. First part of it, we will be bomb but we can't bomb the senior. But the second part, we got one bomb each to bomb them. All of us all bomb Mahathir and some SGLs.

After that, we have wash up and lurch. Treasure hunt after that, we are the second group who found all the clue, but before that there some funny part to it. We are to remember the history of St John Island to get help from our leader. We took like 30 mins to remember just 7lines of words.

After treasure hunt is free time for us to prepare for our performance until dinner, BBQ. I shouldn't talk anything about the preformance because it is only for Tonawanda people to know. Initially, the BBQ is to be done by us, but the SGLs are the best, the prepare for us in the end. Thanks to all my senior, they are just family to us. After dinner, there is this confidence walk where all of us is bindfolded and was brought around the bunk area. It just like OBS where did that.

Preformace after that, where all of us have preformance. After preformance there is this 100sec No NG game we have to finish it. Free-time up to the next day morning. We have a talk cock session at the BBQ area, play some logic game. After that, Mahathir brought us to the beach for a Star-viewing class. The sky was so beautiful that night. I not going to forget the sky that night. The star there is somewhere you would not be able to see at mainland.

Then Eugene brought us for a fish viewing class at the jetty. There is where a joke came out from jessie. "Eugene, now then i know you are so knowlegdable," then eugene with a stone face say " meaning i don't last time."

After that, we say near the beach area and start chatting with each other. Then Eugene talk about his GLs past and some NS talk among the guys. As Eugene to get back to prepare breakfast so all of us went back. Then Yichao , some gls and me help up with Eugene to prepare the breakfast. We stay up the whole morning to prepare the breakfast. There is when we knew eugene more. We talk alot that whole morning. At about 5+ we are all done and some slept on the table some went to the and slept. For me, i went back to bunk and pack up and took my tooth brush and facial cleaner to toilet. After wash up, i walk into the kitchen and slept. Too tired already. I slept until about 7am and went back to call some of fellow up to get ready for the packing up.

have breakfast and area cleaning after that. We got everything done at about 9am. And there Alvin, Suraj, yichao, me start thinking about cheers for those SGLs in the kitchen first is Eugene then Edmund, then KC. It is so fun. Then Pamela come and get camera from me to take photos for them, there it started the photo taking session for all the gls.

Alot of fun event after that, like the vugalar game, then SuBer! game, etc. Language that only the gls there know. LoL.

3D2N that will a memorable one. I suddenly got the feeling like when I'm in NCC. The camps i gone through, like OBS, like Specialist course, etc. The feeling of making new friend and knowing them better. I never regard joining GLs. Is totally fun.

-The End-



xOOx - 9:34:00 pm



It have been so long i really post something here. I should say that i have not been blogging for very long even my new blog. I just feel so out of myself this few days. My attitude towards alot of people changed. Last saturday, was alone walking around in the late afternoon until night. First, I was at Queenway. I went to shop for shorts and shirt. I got one bermudas and one shirt there. After that, i went to take bus 14 to orchard. Stopped at Lucky Plaza. I went to Ngee Ann City. You may think that walking alone in orchard sound so stupid. But I did that. I walked to Kinokuniya. Was looking around for books to read. And I walk toward somewhere I felt so familiar. I took one of the Channel [A] book out. And i remember something. Someone did tell me that this is a nice chinese book to read. I smiled and put it back. There only left 2 out of the 5 books left. I never forget that.

I walked toward taka. Saw some of working friends at the business wear side. Just said hi and i walked away. Went out of Ngee Ann City after that, i walked towards Heeren. Went to a few shop then stopped at HMV. I was listening to Simple Plan new album, sounded nice and was tempted to buy it. But I think i going to get after my camp. Then after that I decided to go to Sim Lim Square. Took the MRT down and walked toward Sim Lim. I never feel so alone before, when you feel that there nothing left for you to aim for. Anyway went to get Total Manager 2005 and 50 CD-R discs to burn out some movie in this labtop. Wanted to get the 256mb or 512mb memory stick for my camera but the salesman was so unfriendly, making me changed my mind.

After that went to take 67 back home. On the bus, before rachel called me I felt so alone and thinking about the last few day event which caused so many incident. I feel so fuck up with myself why i am so useless. Maybe that the end of our friendship? I really don't know. Then rachel called. Someone who i talked to whenever i am down but I never tell her that i'm feeling down. She is someone who can make me happy when i'm down. Talked for awhile then she held up. Then i was left alone thinking of alot of things.

I left myself with fault here and there. Things happened all because of me and i am always the one at fault. The one who caused the things to happen. sigh.....

I have not seem you online for a few days. Did you blocked me? Did you deleted my contact?

I will be away for camp for the next few days. Meaning i will not be online, will not answer your call, will not reply your message. But something will still be there, the feeling of lone person.

Exam Result

PHYSIOLOGICAL SYSTEMS D+

CELL BIOLOGY C

INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY AND PROGRAMMING B+

UNDERSTANDING WRITING FOR ACADEMIC APPL D+

CREATIVITY AND APPLIED THINKING SKILLS C+

IT APPLICATIONS A

ORGANIC & BIOLOGICAL CHEMISTRY C


All passed but I feel i should work harder and get better result next time. But the happy things is that i passed everything which make me think that nothing is immpossible but if one work hard he/she sure can get it.


_.sign off:

(A Guy with a lone heart, broken into pieces.)

_____________________

183俱乐部
折磨


The wall

看你哭着转身就走 我却不知该说什么
是我害你一个人难过 每次想到我就好心痛

为何命运如此捉弄 爱在手中又逃走
想说爱你却开不了口 在你面前我变得懦弱

# 到底怎么了请你告诉我 让我相信
在我们的爱情一道墙矗立 挥之不去
明明相爱却不能长久 最后还是无法去承受

心若死了要怎么救 想你恨你只更折磨
白天黑夜不停缠着我 每次想到心就会喊痛

Repeat #

Do you want me I need to know
Can you feel it let it show
I can't hide it deep within myself
Everytime I look at you I know

Repeat #

到底怎么了请你告诉我 让我相信 (让我相信)
在我们的爱情一道墙矗立 挥之不去 (挥之不去)
明明相爱却不能长久 (爱不能长 oh)
最后还是无法去承受 (我无法承受)

xOOx - 11:49:00 pm



firstly, im back becos some idiot who don like their name and like to post using my name on my tagboard... humji ar... fuckers.... i wun watch my language about this... scold wad ever you like you fucker... it is just scolding yourself... cos you don even like your own name... watch wad you post cos your fucker mouth is just dirty... knn...

becs of this i will close my tagboard... anything.. post at the comment...

anyway i got back my exam result and i passed... even tot is not that good but i will started working hard from now on... no more slacking...


xOOx - 10:42:00 pm



周杰倫
開不了口

才離開沒多久就開始 擔心今天的妳過得好不好
整個畫面是妳 想妳想的睡不著
嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣 還有在妳身上香香的味道
我的快樂是妳 想妳想的都會笑


Chorus 1
沒有妳在我有多難熬
(沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)
沒有妳煩我有多煩惱
(沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)
穿過雲層 我試著努力向妳奔跑
愛才送到 妳卻已在別人懷抱

Chorus 2
就是開不了口讓她知道
我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑
妳對我有多重要 我後悔沒讓妳知道
安靜的聽妳撒嬌 看妳睡著一直到老
就是開不了口讓她知道
就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到
整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著
這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我




xOOx - 6:32:00 pm

I think "I hate you" from my previous post make someone think i hating her... if u think that person is you.. i got nothing to say already.... quote from ur msn... "*u HaTe mE? nVm, cUz | hAv nV L|kE u b4*....."

i didnt wan to post anything on this blog anymore... but to make it clear that if you think it is you then it is you... you wan to be that you just be it... im sick of explaining everything.... i know you don like me... then be it... i only get hurt from it and facing it with reality...

enough of explaination... hidden back...


xOOx - 5:24:00 pm

Someones Watching Over Me
Hilary Duff

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me



xOOx - 3:21:00 am



just finish lurch with my parents... sian man... life is so sucky... sometime things happened so fast that u dunno wad to do... it may seem that it is nothing to u already but just a small event may affect you... hate it... when someone need u then he/she then come tok to u... when they don need u they just kick u one side.. when u chat to them they are away... haix... maybe they are just not fated to you ba.... face the fate ba...

did i did the right thing? hope i did it right ba... hmmmm.... i suddenly feel so tired of the life i living in... can someone come in and change it for me... how long will it take to change someone character... ten years... one month... one day.. one min.. one sec... should i say no one can change their character... it is always my this character that cos this all problem that happened... hai.. or it is me, myself is the problem... i also dunno...

love to me has lost it meaning already... the everlasting love i have been seeking for.. will never come... i hope that someday somewhere i can find that someone.. but for now... i have stop seeking... and thats me... the same old me... with the same old attitude...

the world would not stop spinning just because you are sad... so life must go on... i hate you!!!!!!




xOOx - 1:38:00 pm



today is jo-n 18th bday... happy birthday... afternoon went to NDC for my dental appointment.. today change the wire to a thicker one.. lol... i think i use to it liao.. not so pain liao... whaha... after that went to tampines to meet ray and hj to get jo-n present...

after tat went to PR and meet jeff... then we went to jo-n hse for steamboat... lol... ate quite alot.. lol... tok also... so long nv gather liao.. the last time we gather is on jeff bday... whaha.... ho ho.. jo-n mother stylo... ask us wan to DRINK or not... then we say don wan... but she still call the maid to go buy... diao... in the end i like go drink at least 3 mugs of beer... i haven tipsy yet... just face red just now.. lol....

then as usual.. cut cake.. eat cake.. then play cake.. lol.. headache now... whaha... tml got trg at pan pac... whaha... meeting at 11:45... ho ho... i think shall be late.... whaha...

they now went to catch a mibnight show.. i nv went.. cos of kena debar from going out late.. sound stupid.... argh.. i hate her... argh.... tat why now i tok to her everytime also like bs one..

time to slp... i am so tired... whaha...


xOOx - 1:18:00 am



just downloaded My Date with a Vampire 3... cant version... hmmm... lucky got subtitle.. whaha.. at least i can read and listen at the same time... whaha... i got esp1-7 liao... current lastest one is 8... using BT to download that lastest esp.. whaha... this drama is nice... can go catch it if u are able... heard is out in vcd already... nvm....

tml going to NDC for my appointment... and i dunno shld come back home first or straight away go out liao.. cos going to jo-n's hse to celebrate her 18th bday with the guys and gals... meaning i must go all the way to paris ris liao... how sick man... whahah.. nvm la...

this few days i have been rotting ard... whaha.. surfing forum and blog jumping and reading some books.... abit boring about this holiday... i feel like giving tuition for maths, science... but so long never really touch maths liao... scared i cant teach properly... haha.. see first la... whaha...

Download My Date With Vampire 3(BT)

Esp 1
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xOOx - 10:30:00 pm

woke up today with aching all over my body... whahah... ytd physical training with the gls really work on me... wahha... ytd we have a 5hrs training... even tot like only 30+ ppl attended only we still carry on.. whaha... there is 2 parts of the training... we started the first part having the physical training... warm up and job one round around the school... the jog part is so easy.. whaha... maybe i have been training ba... or it is they run too slow liao.. lol...

after jogging... we have wad i call physicial and mental training.. whaha... the level to it is still low.. whaha... i gone tru that be4 during the ncc camp and training last time... but it have been very long when i gone tru another one.. lol...

that is the first part... we have our lurch break and we carry on the second part... where we learn cheers and songs... whaha... quite fun... sometime i regard joining the campfire where there is every year... haha.. some songs we learn all come from there whaha... remember some already.. whaha..

we clown the dum dum dilly king and queen.. whaha... funny... only those gls will know wad is that for...wahhha...

today done nothing.... just as usual rotting... watch some drama.... and my usual nap but a stupid msg make me wake up just 15 mins later... i dunno why suddenly i hate replying that msg... cant that person stop msg me... it has been months and that person still cant get the answer i wan to tell meh... and stop looking for my fren and tell them to call me to look for u... i wun... i don think u able to see this and so be it... i may be harsh and that me....

sian... my character and attitude keep changing ever since dunno when... i must try to control them or one day.. i dunno wad gotta happened...

since after i make up my mind... i nv wan to get into another relationship in this short term of time... it seem im not ready for one.. or is it i still cant find that one in my life.... shouldnt think too much about that... i still can live without love.... lol....

7 more days to go when my result will be out... pray hard that that i am able to pass all of them... i don wish to waste time on them.. please...

shall go start practise my drum... whaha... gone~


xOOx - 3:05:00 pm




6 friends 6 hearts.... but one story... one never ending story....

xOOx - 1:10:00 am




still strong after cycle for 5hrs...all still look happy...

xOOx - 11:34:00 pm


the 6 strong men cycling in ubin....

xOOx - 11:32:00 pm

ho ho ho... so tiring.. im back from pulan ubin in peace.... hehehe... cycle the whole day... my leg is going to break soon... the bad keencap is injury last time and i force to cycle it today... ho ho... and it become worse...

went there with ray, hj, ys,jeff, jerry... cycle all the whole ubin... wahaha.. wanted to find wild boar... but cant find.. haha... and it is raining and stopping and rain again... going to catch a cold le... whaha... cycle to one part of the island when there is this dog keep folowing us.. whahaha... but in the end it stopped... whaha....

then we was at the NPCC campsite... there is this grp of npcc cadet having their camp... and it is raining.. so we need to seek the hut their using... whaha.. firstly... there is this ger attract me... wahha... she's cute... whaha.. but sec2 only... whaha.. secondly they in charge there suck man... all my fren today are all ex-ncc like me.. wahaha.. we were there saying this and that.. whaha...then that ger's grp go liao to another station... whahah.. another grp got so monster... whaha.... then the rain stopped... and we can move on... whahha... we caught up with that grp.. whaha.. but that stupid in charge call then to contacted... meaning like there is enemies in front and they need to suddenly lied on the floor... whahah.. so poor thing... but im used to it already.. whaha

whaha.. then raced back to the bicycle shop... sure is i last de.. cos of my keen cap... whaha... then after that wash up and caught the boat back to mainland... ate at changi and went back.... shall keep it short... im sick... i caught a cold liao... no mood to write about today liao.... now uploading the pic to the webserver for my frens to dl... whaha...

xOOx - 9:47:00 pm


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