life has been a roller coaster ride to me for so many months... i have woke up from it already... it is like a dream to me... and will soon be forget... it may seem thats not me like last time... but tts me... and the real me... soon i will get back in track and have the life i used to have...

enough of some personal thoughts... back in business about today... hmmm.. pon IS class today... whaha... but went back sch at 12.. not sch la... went to clementi to have lurch with timon ts chao and jf... then go mac eat cone... whaha.. opps.... be4 mac... something happened... lol.... i broke timon umberalla... lalalalala... funny la.... a umberalla with the handle... lol....

was at mac doing the itp project... the code yichao was too hard to understand la... then ts, timon and hansheng need to go sch then follow them back to sch loh... then jf go back home... then at sch... i try reading the code... in the end i think use other option... i did up the total selling price and the login... the login in to touch up....

after done.. went to kap mac to have dinner and tok cock there... whaha.... hmmm.. that my day... need to go pack my pract worksheet le... gone...
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Without Your Love

盛夏的午后 漫无目地的走
火红的星球 怎么温暖不了我
你走了以后 只留下寒冬

回忆的天空 再看不见彩虹
雨下的太多 怎么打进我的心头
渐渐淹没我 逃不开伤痛

我躲在你给的体温 散尽后你却不加温
我痴痴等 痴痴的冷
刻在胸膛上的吻痕 深刻却找不到永恒
心碎陪我哭到无声 我痴痴等 只能痴痴冷

缤纷的周末 黑色才属于我
拥挤的人群 怎么留我在角落
想你的笑容像拥有宇宙 带给我快乐
只因为有你 谁能替代你来拼凑
我散落一地的美梦 再听不见你说爱我
without your love without your love



xOOx - 10:37:00 pm



hmmmmm... today is test all the way... haven obc pract test today... is kns... i dunno can pass or not... haiz.... hope can la... then have itp test... cheated... the whole class cheated... whaha... we copy paste a copy and da ta... whahha.... all out and done... whahah.. edit abit tts it.. lol... haha..then i was there watching movie all the while whaha.. then after itp... i went home to put my bag... is so damn heavy loh.. then have fresh bath and i went back to sch for GLs training... hmmmmm..... expected it liao... the scandal thing... argh.... that xiao fei went ard say then was so paiseh loh... argh... sian diao.... let them be la... the scandal is not true can liao...

haha.. the st john camp is an compusory camp for all gls le.. whaha... hehe... it gotta to have fun le... whahah... gls is a fun cca... whaha... tml going to pon IS... sian la.. nth to do also... stay home slp then do ita project.... wahhaa... 12 go back sch meet chao to do itp project... tiring... gotta have a good rest tonight... gone~


xOOx - 10:47:00 pm




whahahah.. my first drum stick and drum book.... i sign up for the yamaha drum class.... hehe.... will learn to play durm soon... one of intrument i will like to play since young... whahah.... hmmmm.... every sunday 4-5.. see u at ps studio 5 my drums... :p

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hmmm.. tiring... sply... that wad im feeling now.... hmmmm.... something big happened today.... janis was angry.... ho ho... the scariest thing i ever see.... *become hum* lol.... they step over her limit.... and she was on fire.... janis> cool down... cool down..... scary when see u angry.... i try be4 on mon.... so nv wan to disturb her liao... lol....

this is only big thing happened today... hmmm.. then nothing special... have the cb test... shld be alright la... even tot abit last min work... but is easy... shld be able to pass... hmmmm....

life to go on.... i mean my life.... i think i going to hack care everything already.... i try not to think of u le... my life will go on... things that cant be forget will be kept in my bottom of my heart.... i dunno wad u thinking... or maybe i don even know u well that all.... and thats all.... i will be back my old self.... hack care of everything in life.... i don care who is going to read this... for it be u or anyone esle.... don ask why? cos i wun say why....

back to topic... hmmm tmr gls training.... hmmmm.. the fun day of every week... haha... good good.... but bag will be heavy argh.....


xOOx - 5:48:00 pm



hmmm.. sometime i felt that frens is better than going into a love... at least i can tok to here as usual.... but as fren i treat her more than a fren.. i will get the things she wan without anything compliant... i was chatting to her just now... normal chatting... chat quite long.. i know she is bored cos nth to do... but i need to study so i say i go study liao.. but i will cont to send her the album she wan... i think she on the fone or watching tv ba... but i felt that she is on the fone... sometime i don like to have sure strong feeling.... but i cant help it....

i was studying ps now... just cant concentrate to study... so came in to complaint abit.... so i can later go back to study.... her her her... so many her in me.... stupid of me... haiz.... backa to study.... whoever is looking now... don ask who is it cos u may know who she is...

"It is always when it is not yours then one will regret..."


xOOx - 1:38:00 pm



翻开随身携带的记事本　写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落　习惯被守候　寂寞才找我

我看见自己写下的心情　把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久　想你泪会流　而幸福快乐是什么

爱的痛了　痛的哭了　哭的累了　日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好　像上瘾的毒药　它反覆骗着我

爱的痛了　痛的哭了　哭的累了　矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手　闭上眼让你走　烧掉日记重新来过


xOOx - 11:28:00 am



as usual.. have school today... have ita class in the morning was illegally distributing movie to janis... lol... send her quite a few movie.. haha... hmmm... was feeling good until i found out i fail my obc quiz... argh.... sian diao... wad happened to me.... haiz.... i nv pass once in any of the test...haiz... was down again as usual... then after lecture janis was doing her SET... haha.. then me and yichao was disturbing her... lol.... then nadia join in... haha... finally janis struggle to finish her SET lol.... then follow timon to mel and wait for his com to format... lol.... cut the part on wad we do... end out is a failure... he need to format it again... lol... he gave out and he say he will do it at home again..

timon say he wan to go orchard to get his shirt... then i and poon follow loh... we took the bus down to far east.... hmmmm.... was walking at the b1... cant find anything then went up also nth.... went out then timon went in.. lol... look for a gift for his gf... this come the happy part of my day.. when i reach far east.. i have a feeling that i will see py le... dunno why.... then when timon was choosing the shirt.. then i turn... i saw lishi... then saw a shirt so familiar then is her... as usual.... she saw a GHOST..... that me... dunno wad wrong with her la.... at least lishi will say HI.... but she... dunno her la... after getting timon's gf gift... then i went toward her and say bye.... again like see ghost... must keep a distance one.... then i say bye loh... haiz....

then went to wisma.... that where timon got his shirt... whaha... after much choosing... then timon call her gf... cos he wanted to pass her the gift ma.. then too bad.... she off her phone but later found out that is that her gf lend the batt to herfren... lol... then we went coffee club and slack loh... seem i not going home for dinner le... so hack loh... join loh.... then sat until 7pm when poon need to go church... then i was msging py then ask can meet her ma... cos i really nth to do ma... intially i tot timon wan to go de then i can ask if i can go talk talk with her... cos i not feeling good also.. found out she in heeren taking neoprint.. went over and met her with her fren.... i was with timon... hmmmm... we sat outside the neoprint shop and i saw her... when she saw me... hmmmmm.... as usual.... i don wna to say.... timon was there "HUH!" ... i was used to it liao... so i also dunno wad to do... i was waiting and tot she will at least come out and say hi or wad... but.... hiax.... don wna to say le... forget it.... happy or not? i also dunno.... hack la... i also dunno wad i thinking... maybe i shouldnt have saw her today... i dunno wad to say loh....

forget it.... after tt... went to meet rachel cos she in orchard ma... then say hi and bye.... gone home after tt.... wad a day i have... at coffee club.. poon and timon asked me this question... it run tru my mind.... i dunno also.... but i answer them... yes... but maybe no... she and she both run tru my mind be4.... really... but with my current problem it is not fair.... she know about she... tt's all i wan to say....

gone.... back other time... time for study study and projects projects...


xOOx - 9:22:00 pm



Solitaire
Clay Aiken

There was a man, a lonely man
Who lost his love through his indifference
A heart that cared, that went unchecked
Until it died in his silence

And Solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself, it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire

Another day, a lonely day
So much to say that goes unspoken
And through the night, his sleepless nights
His eyes are closed, his heart is broken

And Solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself it's easy to pretend
She's coming back again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire

A little hope, goes up in smoke
Just how it goes, goes without saying
Solitaireee
And by himself it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
Ohhh

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire
Solitaire, solitaire
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this is a nice song... the first time i listen in sg idol.... by that guy... with the feeling... the song have alot of meaning in it... today watch the Unsung Hero of the sg idol... then heard again... still can feel that feeling... so strong.... nice song if u nv hear be4...




xOOx - 9:41:00 pm



hmmmm.. start my day with obc pract.... then followed by lurching at canteen 4.... then have itp class.... hmmmm boring day i have today.. whahah... but this is the first part of my day... the 2nd part was the gLs training... have fun... ice breaking with the other fellow gLs member... lol.... even though it is lame the games... but after so long nv have this kind of lame game.. was quite fun.... whahah.... maybe this is the only thing i wun regard doing in np ba.... wahahha... sound stupid la... anyway gLs is fun... lol.... tata.. need to have a good rest... going to sleep le... tml will be IS... hmmmm.... will be bored to death... nv prepare the skit... lol... hmmmm... sound that we going to do tt last mins... good luck....


xOOx - 10:19:00 pm



hmmmm.... today, i have my obc quiz... hmmm... pray very very hard that i can pass this time round.... pls pls pls.... after the quiz... we went to play canteen 2 and ate then play bball for awhile... whahhaa..... then benny nadia janis kenny went to play pool and the others went back for cb lecture... lol... hmmmm.... wad a bad weather today.. rain, stop, rain, stop.... kinda weird weather today... lol... after cb lecture went to mambo pool and met the the others and play pool for a while... haha... kinda of fun... lol... after tt was late for tut... lol.... this dunno how many time we late liao.. lol....

hmmm after class.. have a bball game... whaha.... that my day today.... hmmm... looking at ytd post... hmmmm.. nvm.... maybe i think too much le.... hehe... *edited* hmmmm... sometime i think that im dreaming leh... wahhaha.... wake up man... don think too much...

finish downloading The Terminal and Face... ho ho... one of list of movie to watch.. hehe.... fun fun... tml will not be sian liao... :p

downloading dodgeball now.. lol... too many movie for me to download... shiok shiok... whaaha...

ho ho ho.. This is my Number 100 posts.. ho ho..... quite cool....


xOOx - 9:16:00 pm



hmmmm... im studying my BC quiz tml... hai.... obc.... i got concept but haix... dunno how to applied... seem so hard for me to understand so many things... can i really make it in 25 more days? haix... kind of disappointed of myself... tired... wanted to give up but i cant... i got my goal... the goal to sucess... i dunno loh.... hopping ard to look at other ppl blog.. hmmmm looked into so many blog... oh ya.. kenny bday today... ho ho... happy bday dude... whaha...

hmmmm... fren has been very encouraging... that make me where am i now.... nv want to give up... hmmm... feeling has been better now... i nv think so much about it le... maybe im too stress of studys le... kind of wan to step into my new life... maybe i shld in search for my partner.... hmmm... sometime life is so complicated that i dunno who is right or wrong... or am i right or wrong? shld i take this step or not? alot of questions where i need answer... really in need of them... wad the hell....

reading... writing.... thinking....

ho ho ho... was to sian.. i complete watching the White Chicks... funny sia... whahah.... next movie the terminal... wahaha.. back to study i guess... haha...


xOOx - 9:44:00 pm



hmmm.. sian diao... i think im very very slack liao.... no mood to study loh.... keep coming online...argh.... die la... and dunno why... don seem to have enough rest... haiyo... dunno wad to do... now im downloading the movie, White Chicks.. haha... i think need to study liao.. keeping this short and sweet.... haha.... tml haven sch le.. 26more days... it is so fast.. o m g....


xOOx - 10:24:00 pm

ho ho ho .. just back home... going to sleep soon.. went out with ray and hj today.. erm.. shld say ytd.. whaha....wanted to go TM to watch movie one.. in the end change to PS last mins... nvm... still got to watch the show we wan.. "The Ghost" rating... ok la... scary: Good...some part was scarey loh... fun.. like the thrill... hehe... after that went parklane play poker pool... haha... that is fun... play until 9 then we went to marine to meet ray classmate... haha.... wanted to have dinner there de.. but the kopitiam closed liao... too bad.. then played on set of bowling then go loh... my blowing spin slack liao... cant find my angle.... in the end forget it... back to normal stroke...

after bowling... tok tok tok.. then make up our mind to go 85... haha.. in the end really go to 85 to eat... lol.. we reach there like 12am liao loh.. lol....then call jeff to come down.. that bastard jeff.. lol... ate our dinner or shld i say supper... tok tok and saw elton with a batches of xiao ginna.... haha.... long hair liao sia... THINK I SCARED U... lol.... we nv say hi to him... he nv say hi to us.. just hack each other... whahha....

enough of my rubbish.. time to slp le.. bye.... hehe ^*^


xOOx - 2:48:00 am



woke up and full body ache like hell... sian diao... whahah... ytd went to gym.... upper body.... ho ho... pain.... later going out with ray and hj to TM... to watch Ghost if im not wrong.. lol.... then go to 85 for dinner... hmmmm.....

i got a good offer for my data centre from milton.. gotta shift server over if all partners agree on it.... shld be alright de... if no problem next sat will be shifting over.... haha.... lalalala.... fun fun... :p my server gotta have new life at a new place... whahaa.... cheaper than my current hosting... hehe....

gtg.. bye.... any update will be at night le.. gone...




xOOx - 1:43:00 pm

1> English - I love you
2> Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
3> Albanian - Te dua
4> Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
5> Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
6> Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
7> Bambara - M'bi fe
8> Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
9> Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
10> Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
11> Bulgarian - Obicham te
12> Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
13> Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
14> Catalan - T'estimo
15> Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
16> Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
17> China - Wo ai ni
18> Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
19> Creol - Mi aime jou
20> Croatian - Volim te
21> Czech - Miluji te
22> Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
23> Dutch - Ik hou van jou
24> Esperanto - Mi amas vin
25> Estonian - Ma armastan sind
26> Ethiopian - Afgreki'
27> Faroese - Eg elski teg
28> Farsi - Doset daram
29> Filipino - Mahal kita
30> Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
31> French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
32> Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
33> Georgian - Mikvarhar
34> German - Ich liebe dich
35> Greek - S'agapo
36> Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
37> Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
38> Hawaiian - Aloha wau ia oi
39> Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
40> Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
41> Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
42> Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
43> Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
44> Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
45> Hungarian - Szeretlek
46> Icelandic - Eg elska tig
47> Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
48> Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
49> Inuit - Negligevapse
50> Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
51> Italian - Ti amo
52> Japanese - Aishiteru
53> Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
54> Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
55> Kiswahili - Nakupenda
56> Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
57> Korean - Sarang Heyo
58> Latin - Te amo
59> Latvian - Es tevi miilu
60> Lebanese - Bahibak
61> Lithuanian - Tave myliu
62> Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
63> Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
64> Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
65> Marathi - Me tula prem karto
66> Mohawk - Kanbhik
67> Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
68> Nahuatl - Ni mits neki69> Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
70> Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
71> Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
72> Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
73> Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
74> Persian - Doo-set daaram
75> Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
76> Polish - Kocham Ciebie
77> Portuguese - Eu te amo
78> Romanian - Te ubesk
79> Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
80> Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
81> Serbian - Volim te
82> Setswana - Ke a go rata
83> Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing 'I Love You')
84> Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
85> Sioux - Techihhila86> Slovak - Lu`bim ta
87> Slovenian - Ljubim te
88> Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
89> Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
90> Swedish - Jag alskar dig
91> Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
92> Tagalog - Mahal kita
93> Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
94> Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
95> Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
96> Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
97> Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
98> Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
99> Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
100> Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
101> Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
102> Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
103> Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
104> Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu
105> Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
106> Yoruba - Mo ni fe
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next time say in all this language to the one u love.... lol for me... forget it la...


xOOx - 1:27:00 am



hmmmmm... wad have i did today... went to sch in the morning... have ita... learn dreamwearer.... fun fun... finally learn how table work.. hehe... as usual go canteen 1 for lurch then have tut then lecture... obc lecture... don understand sia... whahaha... die die... i dunno everything... haix.... i dunno how i going to live... haix.. after lecture wanted to play bball then played awhile then the stupid SnW teacher come... f### him... one class need the whole 3 court for wad sia.... wad lau arh... f f f f.... then went to atrium to play labtop... wanted to do the itp project... do some of the other parts... then dunno how to do.. sian diao.. then played NFS... whahah.... then at about 5 left sch... then go home... suddenly feel like going gym again.. lol.. then went loh... ho ho... shoulders are aching liao loh.... hmmmm...

some funny part of today... at tut... ms ng say about someone like janis.... whahha... then we guessing who is that guy in 1f07....... then all aim at roy.. lol.. haha... then now keep disturbing her with roy.. lol.... and as usual i will be included.... argh.... lalallaa... those who dunno.... u need not know... lol...

and oh ya... i make janis angry on wed.. cos i send to a few of us the video yichao took... ho ho... hehe.... sorry la... now i don dare to tok about that video again.... or i will die.. lol... or shld say don dare to disturb her le.. lol...

hmmm... tml... dunno shld go or not go out with my fren... sian.... all comfirm but jeff.... he always the ma fan one... that make me sometime don wan to go de loh... hack la.. if no answer by tml.. i don go out loh... lol.. sian man....

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Days and Nights

days after days...
i felt so tired...
felt so weak...
my days are turning dark....
my night are turning hell...

my memories fading...
i seem forget about you...
but somewhere will never change...
my heart....
my heart is always there for u....

-18 Sept 2004-


xOOx - 11:46:00 pm



will keep this short and sweet.. lol... hmmm.. have IS in the morning... hmmmm.... was raining damn heavy after sch..meet up with yichao.... wanted to go gym straight after tt... but he say nv bring this and that then went to his hse to get... then say wait for the rain to stop a little then leave... then he started playing d2 and i there rot... looking for ppl to chat... but it don look like got ppl.. lol.... waited and waited until 2 + then we leave... met jiafeng to eat... lol... reach clementi.. jia feng was like half dead.. lol... hungry pig ma.. lol... then went to the clementi market to eat... ho ho.. i ate alot... ate one plate of wan ton mee... + one hum jin peng + one butterfly peng + one yong tiao... whahaha.... super full... then tok tok tok... until 4 then i and yichao then go gym.. then jia feng went hm...

at gym.... normal workout... then the intructor came... haha.. then we asked her alot of qns... then she good and willing to help... haha.... i only train upper.. now abit ache i think tml shld be aching le.. lol.... hack la.. still playing bball tml lol... tts all... backa to study... gone...


xOOx - 11:09:00 pm



backa home at about 10pm today.. ho ho.. have class from 9am-3+pm.. after that went to atrium and do project.. but in the end nv do... play and chat around... needed to stay back for the lsct gl thingy.. hmmmmm... went for the gl thingy... at 6:15pm.. ho ho.... hmmm... the sgl(senior grp leaded)... o m g.... am i into another uniformed grp.... they are like ncc formed of doing thing... taking attendant... whahah... they say must raise right hand and say present... i wanted to say "Present Mdm!!!!!" whhahaha.. but nv... if i wan to shoot them... i can de.... this is a gl... not ncc... or any uniformed grp.... wads the problem need to shout for wad the fark... at least the president is properly doing things.. the other GLs.... wan me to teach them work ma... wahhaha.... i sound too BHB.. but really loh.... forget it.. too tired... going to sleep. le... bye...


xOOx - 11:10:00 pm

now still in school... ermm.. later got the gl thingy.. dunno wad lame thing la.. whaha... sian man... so lmae.. need to stay until 6:15 for this stupid thing.. wahahaha... tts all i wan to say about la.. lol... sian man...


xOOx - 4:37:00 pm




hmmm... today have fun taking picture in school.. lol... go my pic gallery and go 1f05 the folder... lol... funny sia... usually when disturb janis.. lol.... me timon and yichao was using cam taking her during lurch break at canteen 4... lol... ermmm... wad bout this pic i post together... hmmm... intially there is two ring... but one is given out... one ring has the word '建' the other ring has the word '升' one it.... hmmm.... i having tt '升' one... hmmmm...

don wan to tok about tt.... whahhaa.... 31 more days to major... how stupid man... time fly so fast... haiyo.... it is like ytd... when i last took my o's and now im takin the major for this sem.. oh ya... kena selected for GL for LSCT lol.. the lame interview i went to... bloody sing song... argh... tml got dunno wad meeting la... 6:15.. f sia... so late... wan to slp sia... argh.... stupid idiot... finally a real cca.. but maybe joining bowling... lol....

tt's all to tok about... backa to study... and who is reading this.. good luck in everything.... bye...

ho ho ho... i miss the free time i have.... gone to my dreamland....

or ya... the cockster association... lol....

Head: Yichao
Vice Head: Jason
Leaders: Timon, Aaron
Members: Recuriting... Mainly 1F05 guys are in the Assoication...

lol.... stylo... new gang in 1f05... the cocksters... lol.... cool man... whaha


xOOx - 10:48:00 pm



hmmmm.. today nothing special happened.. went sch went class... haha.. i pon lecture.... hehe... ps... too tired.. then in the end took bus home... half way... shld have my hair cut.... then went to jantzen to cut... ho ho.. then dye black my hair... cut + dye + treatment + wash... ho ho.... then went home after tt... tired man.... tt's all... nothing to blog....

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Richard Marx - Again

There's been no sunlight
Since the day you said goodbye
Since the moment that my life
Turned into a masquerade
I can't even pretend to
Paste a smile across my face
All my dreams have been erased
There's nothing left to save me

Chorus:
And you
You're the only one can stop my sky from falling
You're the only one who's name I keep on calling
When everything is closing in
And you
You're the only one can stop this heart from aching
You're the only one who can stop me from shaking
And put me back together
Again

What I'd give just to wake up
And wipe your memory from my eyes
But I can't wish for bluer skies
I've never been quite so hopeless

Chorus:
And you
You're the only one can stop my sky from falling
You're the only one who's name I keep on calling
When everything is closing inAnd you
You're the only one can stop this heart from aching
You're the only one who can stop me from shaking
And put me back together
Again

And if you stay away
I fear it will all be too much
And if you stay away
I'll be a man who's lost his touch

Chorus:
And you
You're the only one can stop my sky from falling
You're the only one who's name I keep on calling
When everything is closing in
And you
You're the only one can stop this heart from aching
You're the only one who can stop me from shaking
And put me back together
Again

Again
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just downloaded this song.... find this song not bad.... the words in it are meaning... sad song attract me.. dunno why.. lol... :p

my blog has become home of sad song... meaning song.. but no happy song... :p



xOOx - 9:07:00 pm

Please spend 1 minute to read this, it's verymeaningful.
When the bus come, you look at it and you said toyourself,
"eeee... so full...cannot sit down one".
So you said to yourself, "I'll wait for the next one."
so you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.

Then the second bus came, you looked at it and you said,
"eeee...this bus so old...surely very uncomfortable one."
So you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

After a while, another bus came.
It's not crowdedand not old but you said,
"eeee... no air-conone...and the weather is so warm, better wait forthe next one."
So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late.
You panicked and jump on to the next oncoming bus.
It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus!
So you wasted your time and money waiting for whatyou want!
Even if an aircon bus came, can you ensure that the aircon bus won't break down or will the aircon be too cold for you?

So people...(mostly girls but guys too!) want tomake sure that what you want is not wrong. But itwouldn't hurt to give other people a chance, right?If you found that the "bus" doesn't suit, you justpress the red button and get off the bus!

But wait...I am sure all of you have this experienced before. You saw a bus is coming (thebus you want of course) you flagged it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing you andzoomed pass you!The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for abus and whether you want to get on the bus andgive the bus a chance depends totally on you and walking alone is just like being out of love.

If you love someone set him/her free. If he/she comes back to you, you know they're yours. If they don't then it was never meant to be. Remember to always say what you mean. If youlove someone, tell. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean toyou. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late.

Seize the day. Never have regrets.And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you theperson that you are today.Pass this along to your friends. It could make a difference.The difference between doing all that you can or having regrets which may stay with you forever. Friendship is never an accident. It is always theresult of high intentions, sincere effort, intelligentdirection and skillful execution. It represents thewise choice of many alternatives.

And remember.... Keep Smiling....coz... "Of AllThings You Wear, Your Smile Is As love returns tome, As I return to you, As love returns to us.I guess this is really wondeful and make a lot of sense




xOOx - 1:01:00 am



the memory lane.... will i ever forget this place.... i think u have forgotten about this.... picgallery updated... feel free to look at those....

Posted by Hello


xOOx - 3:26:00 pm



xOOx - 10:48:00 am

as i look into your eyes
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies
you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone
my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive
though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all
arianna i feel so alive


xOOx - 1:48:00 am



nothing better to do... as i am so tired and sick...

Posted by Hello

xOOx - 12:54:00 pm

today is sat... ytd nv blog cos went to slp straight when i came back back home.. not feeling well... i have not been resting well for the last few days.. then ytd caught a cold... but after sleeping from 9pm - 9am today... i recover le.. lol... ytd... got the ita test.. i think can make it la... still alright... then the obc retest... finger crossed... pray tt this time can pass... i am too sick to study tt night and too tired too... then the btt(basic theroy test) went there with my half dead body... i dunno i can pass it or not.... whahaa... don care... lol...

hmmm... today.. i think not going out... maybe stay at home and rest more.... then need to start the revision for the end year exam in 4 weeks time... other thing i think i can put it aside already.... hope it will not come to me ba...

the tired me has recovered.... the energnetic me is back in action.....


xOOx - 9:52:00 am



today is my best fren, jeffrey the bastard birthday... whahah.. just came back from dinner with them.... who went for his bday... me, ray, hj, dennis, darius, lishen, joanne, jane, bingling, liying and eelin... lol... went to pizza hut to eat.. but be4 that meet ray and hj... haha.... we are super bastard grp of fren... unique present.. went to get condem for him... haha... get him cute cute type one.. lol... and went to breadtalk and get a cake for him also.. lol....

at pizzahut... catch with some old fren talk cock with them and after that went to outside ps the B.B.O.S.S there.. haha.... my fun attitude is out... wanted to push him into the water.. but fail.. lol... then hahha.. come the cake.. hehe... walk toward him and throw at him.. lol....

kena cake...on the face... lol..

really have fun... after so much stress the lsat few days... i feeling better le... frens are honour as one becos they care.... they give happiness to me.... frens forever...


xOOx - 11:41:00 pm



is always this batch of fren who will make me happy even tot i am unhappy.... this are frens who care... who know... who shld i say... no regrets to know them...

frens who care are really called fren... not those who need u then come buay u are call "fuckoff u sucker.."


xOOx - 9:19:00 pm



wad rotting... stressed up this few days.. after failing my ps and obc... haix... studying my obc now... kinda of tired.. then when hopping ard to look at ppls blog.. then cam to yours... dunno why.. suddenly feel like reading yours blog all series of posts... then i finally found out why last time u nv wan to accept... y u have that vow... why this and that.. hai... i nv wan to read it last time... becos past is past... and i don wan past to come into present...

reading and reading... saw the time u are sad... so sad.... so confuse... and why i wasnt there for u... hai... im still the same me... cover by the current me... the current fuckup jason.... the lone jason... but im still myself... i still love u.... trying to get someone to tok to ytd... msg u and i don think u even care... then i say forget it... then nv msg u and i nv receive a reply from u... i was emotional ytd.... even tot i don show.. fren can see... encouraging me... but wad i receive from u is like a joke and demoralise msg... i don care who will read this... trying to give up... but fail.. i dunno why... why i fall for u... why i cant just forget u like kat... why? i am fool... fool by someone called love....

hai... but i have a bunch of frens... bro... who care even more.... they will ask why? wad happened? they can see that i not feeling gd... but i nv really wan to tok about tt... cos i dunno where to start... just answer them... "nth just feeling tired.." then i will try to change topic... im too into relationship probelm... first... it was gladys.... i don know if she care to read my blog or not... she is the first who make me fall into love... and sadded for a long time... frens then will know... i can be damn attitutde in class... in my cca.... during that period... study went down and my n lvl shld expect better result but nv... i think she affected mi until i leave the sch... which is 1yr+.... then started my new life...

a period of time is kat... but got rejected.... sadded for a while then came peiyi.... how i fall in love with her? just a sudden feeling for her.... i remember it is when i collect my o's result that day... meet ong and her with darius after collecting the result... sitting outside pasta.... suddenly i was looking or shld i say staring at her... after tt.. i just start smsin' her... chat on the msn on the fone with the other 2... then came the one week sch holi... went out with them for a outing... went parkway fish and co.! it started.. i know i fall for her liao... cant take my eyes away from her for the whole day... tt night i told her.. "wo ke yi jiu ni ma?" then she keep asking why? don joke la? then i started serious.. then she knew it is real... then nv really say anything... one first gift for her.. a dcp shirt... a dog in front... i have tt shirt also... brought it on mon when going out with them... choose orange becos she like it... and i also brought tt orange one for her... she like tt dog alot... cos cute ma... fri she and ong and her frens... came to my work place.. then i pass her tt shirt and 10$ cos she no $$ ma... lend her... she didnt use it in the end... folded a heart and keep it with her.. dunno if tt 10$ is still ard... we started chatting on the fone... one day she say she wan that ring i wearing having the "jian" word on it, something tt she can look at when she think of me... haix...

she came tt day... i was so happy.. cos like so long nv see her... but is only like 1wk or so.. forget already... i remember is i keep calling her to come de... cos i cant go find her... working ma... came down and took the ring from me... still remember is outside taka B2 entrance... put my hand in front of her face then when her hand want to push my hand away.. i went grab her hand but she push away.. funny la... in the end nv grab la.. then she leave liao.. kinda of miss tt moment.... haix.... thinking of the past... miss them and feel sad... regret of alot of thing... regret of working regret of not doing this and tt... im just an another failure...

jason sux.... that wad i feel about myself now.... i sux...



xOOx - 11:08:00 pm

http://cartoon.0451.net/flash/ShowFlash.asp?Id=6772

nice show... can go see...


xOOx - 9:46:00 pm

還記得那天下午　妳說妳沒有感覺了　妳說妳不想再哭了
妳還說　妳不怕孤單不怕面對寂寞　那所有快樂不再屬於妳和我

曾經我是愛你這麼多　曾經你也愛我那麼多
一滴滴眼淚一段段的回憶　害怕如此寂寞

想大聲說不要離開我　讓我繼續愛妳那麼多
一個個承諾全都變成失落　明天醒來　希望是一場夢

還記得那天下午　妳說妳沒有感覺了　妳說妳不想再哭了
妳還說　妳不怕孤單不怕面對寂寞　那所有快樂不再屬於妳和我

曾經我是愛你這麼多　曾經你也愛我那麼多
一滴滴眼淚一段段的回憶　害怕如此寂寞

想大聲說不要離開我　讓我繼續愛妳那麼多
一個個承諾全都變成失落　明天醒來　希望是一場夢

夢會醒天會亮　揮別了昨日的溫柔
我擁有了自由　卻不懂得該往哪走
默默去承受　接受這一刻

曾經我是愛你這麼多　曾經你也愛我那麼多
一滴滴眼淚一段段的回憶　害怕如此寂寞

想大聲說不要離開我　讓我繼續愛妳那麼多
一個個承諾全都變成失落　明天醒來　希望是一場夢
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xOOx - 1:11:00 am



WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD
Louis Armstrong

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.
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wad a wonderful world? is the world so wonderful? where is my wonderful wonderful world then? damn it... fuck off.... i not going to be the same old me anymore.... is all this problem tt change me... don ever ask me why? what happened? im tired already.... my aim will not sucess with this problem pulling me on... im tired.... im tired of everything... im not the same old me... define me... im just another idiotic guy u ever know... tts the bottomline and im sick of myself already....


xOOx - 11:45:00 pm

it is 12:36am.... and i cant sleep again.. hai... another sunday which i cant sleep... sian diao... so i come in and blog loh.. i was browsing my singtel hp de no. and saw some old msg... oh man... not again... it is her... her msg still there.... hai... wad can i do... it seem tt im still there thinking of her.... even tot i hope to get into my new life... sound so irony...

not becos of tt, tt i cant slp... dunno la... just tt cant slp... after blogging maybe go read up cell bio... why is my life so unfair... now kinda of miss wad i have last time... even back to the time when im sec4 when i like someone... nv cherish the time... was so shy.... dunno wad to do... in the end... ended... 2 years later... like another ger... done everything... but she say im not understandable... and ended it.. it seem love is so unfair to me... seeing my frens.... those who don cherish their relationship one.. i will say them.... but why don i reprimanded myself... haiz....

my tears... dropped for 2 gers.... but will this 2 gers know? maybe staying single for now is good... but i will be waiting... trying.... seeking.... for the one.... "YOU"

"vow? wad is vow? when vow can be broken anytime... there is no meaning behind it anymore.... "


xOOx - 1:35:00 am



si bei sian... nv go out today... stay at home the whole day... doing nothing special...

firstly, woke up at about 10 like that.... then was smsin' gladys.. haha.. so poor thing... must go sch for class intially tot is compulsory, so she cancel her outing with her frens then in the end is optional. so she got 2hrs nothing to do... so she walk to tm from my sch.... ke lian of her... was msgin' her tru out... then like 11:30... she walked back home from tm... lol... so ke lian... then pei her until she reach home tru the sms...

then we stop sms after tt... then i start my onlining... doing up my new blogskin... haha.... used about a few hours to done it up.. then went out for lurch then come back and cont doing it.. wahahaha... so bored.. then rachel sms me.. then i call her and talk rubbish with her again.. lol... always like to tok lame things with her.. lol... too bored today le... when she put down, i went to edit abit of the blog and ma and pa come back le.. then i go slp... whaha...

then was chatting with chuan hui after tt... whaha... become lame again.. lol... im super lame today.. lol... whahaha.... help her to edit her blog... and add a tag board into it.. whaha... there keep saying ehr to update her blog.. whaha.. u like so long nv update loh.. whaha.. then she say cannot post... diao... she ar... nothing to day...

tt's my day... is so damn boring... argh.... sian diao.... hmmmmm....


xOOx - 10:14:00 pm

曲：戴佩妮 词：戴佩妮 编：吴庆隆

还记得那一次你将你的手 小心的放进我的口袋
轻声的说不要颤抖 还记得那一次你擦干我的泪
还坚持将我低下的头 紧紧的贴进你的胸口
我有多久没感动过 若不是你那么强烈的保护我
若不是你的那一句 你有的不多
却愿意把最好的都留给我

你要我住进你心里的防空洞 不让无谓的思绪暗涌
再多分扰也都没有用 你决定了我所有的喜怒哀愁
你把我带到一个停泊的港口 让回忆可以避避风
仰望着夜空 听潮起潮落 为你我不在向往着漂流


xOOx - 6:54:00 pm

ho ho ho ho... done... mission completed.. whaha.... finally my own skin is out le.. whahah... nice ma... whahha.... hehe.... very happy with it.. lol... tired.... go sleep liao.. whaha...

How to know someone like you?
GuYZ 2 noe if "sHe" lyks YoU:
1.She makes eye contact and smiles at you.
2. She calls you for homework..... a lot!!
3. She flips her hair when she's talking to you.
4. She touches your arm when she talks toyou.
5. She says "No, I'm not telling you who Ilike!!" with a big smile on her face.
6. She asks you who you like or who you wouldgoout with seeming interested.
7. When you go to the movies with a bunch ofyour friends, she's almost always next to you.
8. She criticizes (put downs) the girl you like.
9. She knows your WHOLE family's namesincluding your dog).
10. She knows stuff about you like yourbirthday,eye color, favorite color, screen name, favoritefood, favorite band, what music you like andfavorite sport.
11. Her friends outside of school know aboutyou and say she talks of you a lot.
12. She knows your phone number andaddress.
13. She will try and talk and spend time withyou as much as possible. loaDs oF crApZ!!!

Girls 2 noe if "he" lyk you:
1. His snow ball hits you (but not in the face).
2. He threw away his laser pointer after youtold him you think they promote random actsof violence.
3. After asking you to sign his yearbook hewrote "How come we never hung out?".
4. He yelled Hi!!" to your mom that day shepicked you up from school.
5. He blew off his buds to go see "Run AwayBride" with you cause you couldn't get anothergirl pal to go and you didn't want to go alone.
6. Forget your jacket? You can wear his.
7. His voice get softer ("Hey you") wheneveryou two talk.
8. You hung up on him and he called youback.
9. You were invited by him to a group outing.
10. He called you to talk to you about nothingat all.
11. He imitates your laugh- okay, you do snortsometimes, which makes you laugh evenmore!!12. He remembers little things you mention incasual conversation. LOadS oF craPZ...
13. He sometimes stares strait into your eyes.

Now make a wish:someone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves yousomeone loves you

OKAY STOP


xOOx - 4:52:00 pm



today.... lucky today went out early... whaha... or else super late liao... jam in the traffic for 1 damn hr loh... haha... then late for 5mins... whaha... then have the ita lesson.. hehe... during the lesson went to msn.. then saw gladys online.. lol... then chat chat.. then she doing her blog... so i say wan to help ma.. then in the end help her and nv listen in class....

haha.. found her a new template then edit for her... haha... she say she like it very much.. lol... hmmm... then help help until class finish then until break still helping.. hehe.. nv eat my lurch just now... just to chat with her... hmmmm.... then i remember that she using 56k... charge at /min de.. then call her don online too long loh.. then she say she going loh... hmmmm.... abit bu she de... lol... haha..

whole day kena saying by my classmate that i keep sianing with xiao mei mei... argh... sian diao.. just tt i say a ger infron of me ytd at the biotech fair is cute then keep saying me le... argh... then play with them loh... haha... they say.. then i say.. "ya la ya la..." whahaha

today i was super tired... should say this whole week i super slack loh... whaha... hai.. sian diao.. i lost my file... the obc test paper inside also so many things inside loh... wad lau.... dunno where i drop it sia... hai...

this week watched two movie... tuesday watch AVP.. not bad la... but abit lame loh... nv expect much after i heard so many comment from frens... but ys hj they all wan to watch so follow loh... ray me ys hj watch avp loh.... then thursday watch anacondas (the search fer the blood orchid).. not bad la... still alright...

next few movie wan to watch.... Garfield, White Chick, 13 Going 30...

tml should be going out with my fren de.. in the end... the stupid chuanhui say she cannot.. cos she no $$.. whaha.. cos she say she wan to treat me ma... abit funny la.. suddenly wan to treat me movie.. then need to wait until next week loh... is ok la... i don mind... those dunno who is chuan hui... she is a good fren loh... whahhaha.... tok all the rubbish with her one.. lol....

abit sian loh... like super tired loh... dunno this few day.. no mood to do anything loh... argh... wahha... study no mood.. do assignment no mood... hai... hope tml i can rest enough.. shld not be going out le la.. then stay at home study... hmmm... obc im totally lost loh... cb ps... all the core... hai... i dunno i can make it for this sem or not.. hai....

dunno next wk shld i ask her out or not... sch holi ma.... hai.. i only got one day to spare.. if cannot mean cannot le... so long nv go out with her le.... maybe i tml ask her... if she free this thurs ma... hehe... who is the SHE? haha... guess loh... maybe is u the one reading now... lol...

hmmm... tight timing next week... mon must do the library amazing race then tues maybe going the dargon boat training... wed free.. but dunno wad will come out later... thurs.. out or gym... fri... hope nth then can be like now... whaha.. slack.. lol...

just now peiyi call me... lol... tt pighead... argh call me and saw where is woodland sport hall.. diao... then scolded by her for nth... really dunno where ma... whaha... but in the end is i tell her where.. haha.. check for her... whaha... there keep calling me pig... argh.. hai.. forget it la... she ar... nv eat again or used up her pocket money again then nv eat... then there hungry... if i really can go out that time, i sure will go find her and pass her food de loh.. but cannot... ma and pa coming back le... if she call earlier... i sure call them not to buy my dinner then go find her de loh... hai... just to pass her the food la... everything is "IF".... but nv happened...

py> look after youself...

today... like blogging day... type so much out.. haha... should end here le... haha... blog next time le.. lol


xOOx - 9:47:00 pm


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