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xOOx - 1:51:00 am



Happy birthday to yichao....

went to marine bay for steamboat... first we have a game of bowling becos we need to wait for the rest to come... then follow by the steamboat... it is still alright... today i will prawn king... keep chionging prawn... whahha... and the prawn sux... all like death liao... no fun liao... then help some of them to take the prawn shell out... whahah... that include SHE... initially she don wan... but in the end she still accepted it... wahha.... she left early... about 10 + left liao... sian half...

then after steamboat we went to this bay at the end.... quite a nice place.... sit sit look look... tok tok... but i like so lost... cos she ciao liao... argh.... nvm....

Quote: "pig pig pig pig pig frog."

You are so near yet so far. . .


xOOx - 1:49:00 am



It has been like so long already... my feeling for her still have not change... just becoming stronger everyday... she maybe don feel it or even don know about it... but i wan to say this... I like you already.... i feel jealous because of you... i feel sad because of you... i feel happy because of you.... is all about you now....

Time separate us,
but it will never stop me from loving you.
Distance separate us,
but it will never stop me from missing you.

I just hope one day, you will be mine.

-life in a mono-




xOOx - 11:27:00 pm



hmmmm.. .. went sch early to help up manning the D&D tix store.... then went for MB lecture.... then went back blk 34 to man the store again.... we have been toking with tingma at the store then gossip here and there.. chit chat with j-lo, zhiyi sheryl, alvin, yichao... then about 5+pm... we got sub-com meeting with xiaofei and joyce... then i need to prepare the lucky draw gift list soon... cos im the IC,... :p

after the meeting... sheryl yichao shujuan alvin royston hongwei and me went to BA carpark and find steph peiying they all... hehehe... they having their dancing thingy there.. go see see... disturb peiying... :p then steph with that pathetic middle finger post... is so damn funny la.. whahha

then here come the biggest joke... yichao wan to do 7 then in the end end up "5 legs face sky" whahah.. then need to get the SU paper to find first aid kit up.. whahah.. he lucky la... he nearly broke his leg la... a idiot la...

siannnnnnnnn... so damn tired.... having a big headache now... seem like... ermmm... forget it....


xOOx - 10:47:00 pm



yawn yawn.. finally fully re-charged from the past few days activities.... let tok about last friday... we ended with 2:5 lossing to CE... anyway this is our first game... so is ok... after the match we went to wash and make our way to have our dinner... no is supper... whahha... we left the place about 11pm like that... reach home and did some hse work then slept liao.... it is already 1am when im done...

the next day... woke up at 7.30am for IPC pract... i was so tired la... hmmmm... after that make my way to school.. did the lame exiperment and went to C1 to have break-lunch.. then went up to L3 and look for xiao zhu... she say got something to tell me... but in the end that pig got nothing to tell me... wad lau... but i stay around and look at them dancing...whahha... peiying is stress up when i saw her loh... then she is so tired up... ke lian... then about 1pm+ then i left... i went home... sleep and woke up to watch the prince of tennis... have my dinner and rot all the way loh...




xOOx - 1:14:00 pm



TIRED... i only can say this... i freaking tired... this few days i have make myself so tired... omg... since monday i have not stay home for dinner and tml i will not have also... i having soccer match with CE tml.. whahaha...

i gotta play in the 2nd half.. wow... DL is my position.. whahha... Adidas F30+.. whoooo... my new boots.... love the design but it don come in red... if it is red i will got it man... i got the blue one today... whahaha...

shld have gotta the jersey today one but some problem we will get tml... haha... The LSCT GLs Football Club... we rules....

shall catch some sleep now... and update you about the match tml when i am back tml... :p


xOOx - 12:00:00 am



yesterday i reach home about 11:40pm... wow.... we end training at about 10+... ytd game was a sucessful one.... congrat to adrain's grp.... even tot the drawing of face some may be think is over... but i feel is just part of the fun.... so relax man....

whaaha.... i shall cont tonight... i shall go sch now le... :p

[shall not cont.... hehehe... lazy]


xOOx - 8:54:00 am



yawn yawn.... tired.... so tired... super tired... arghhhhh...... o m g.... no more double expresso the day be4... make me 2am+ then sleep.. wad lao... can die.... arghhhhh.... now getting to go sch... laser got 3hrs break but dunno wad to do... siannnnn.... see got wad programme loh... heehee... later got gls training... i think going to end dunno wad time again... 10pm? 11pm? whahaha...

no more mood... =p


xOOx - 8:51:00 am



I shall be down for the next few days.... haix.... no more morale already.... low low low.... fucking low... arghhhhhhhhhh.......



xOOx - 9:40:00 pm

Finally finish talking with milton and rongjun about the idc porblem.... we shall fixed our plan on expan then.... sian... taking the risk... whahaha.... haiyo.... okay... shall tok about wad i did today? shld say ytd.... woke up at 11+... wahhaha... then rot around revise on my function and log quiz later in the afternoon... then have my lunch and went to bath after that....

went for drum lesson.... i was on the pad today... hard to hear if i play correctly... whahaha... then have dinner with family and my kor's gf... then did some shopping for praying tml with parents.... then went home and rot around until milton called me.... then talk until just only... sian... later need to wake up at 6.30am... going to gym after that....

and oh ya... MS. KANG PEIYI..... diao.. msg her in msn bo reply one.... going to kill her soon.... and i didnt see someone online today.... haix... nvm... i am getting bored about myself already.. need to get some life out of it...

shall end here... and catch some sleep....


xOOx - 1:21:00 am



another boring day... watch Prince of Tennis Esp 36-45 today... Fuji Suyusuke is good... whaaha.... he is cute... whahahha... chat on msn then sleep then wake up.... did the mol.... yeapie... i complete the mol except for the revision... shall do them on mon or wad ba... sian.... watch tiger cup.. sg won 3:1.... oh ya... helped nai ma do up the lsct gls' soccer forum.. have a forum just for training date and day... o m g... whahha... *i think my tagboard will be flooded if nai ma saw this* whahhaa

i am bored....


xOOx - 11:10:00 pm

Heaven Knows
Rick Price

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holdin' on

So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows



xOOx - 1:14:00 am



bored.... i should be at bedok 85 having my dinner with jeff they all.. but wo shen bing le... zhu tou is sick.... omg... having a bad headache.... and my teeth is pain after another appointment at NDC... sian la.... argh... and i cant find anyone to chat now... haix.. im super bored... argh.... im lossing myself... omg... im down... im sick... argh...

im so tired....


xOOx - 9:44:00 pm



sian-ed... so tired.... this few days like alot of activities like tt... need to help up this help up that.. i have fully untilised all my sleep time... last time 8am wake up.. now 10am then wake up.. whahha... too tired.... ytd have gls training... play some group games then play water bomb... quite fun... going help up in the 3 days of the open house on 19,20 and 22... 22 will be there whole day... ahem... KANG PEIYI u better come buy something from my counter.... :p still dunno wad we selling yet...

going to help up in D&D night also... whahah... like helping in alot of event like tt.... 15jan also going to do fund raising... but that one not comfirm yet still waiting for comfirmation from mahathir.... sian.... wan to slp sia.... later still got ocom... topic: hobbies... sian... going to tok rubbish later again....whahaha.... every week i have been toking rubbish... whahaha.... then s&w.. hope don rain....it better dont.... i wan my tennis training....

shall stop here... going off to school soon le... whahhah.... *dead*


xOOx - 11:45:00 am



It has been ages since i last update my blog. My blog have been up and down for the past few days or weeks... Due to the stupid server fault at STIX. I hope that my few hours over there today settle the problem. Life have been getting from worse to bad. Think it is a good sign. Mean year 2005 is giving me a change of my past life.

But there is still this UPS and DOWNS of me. *hate it* Shall keep it to myself. Im confused of what to do next, should i or should i not. OH MY GOD.... Sickening of being affect by thing around me. Hate the feeling of being talk at the back and letting me found out. haix... forget it shall not talk about it anymore, it is so sick to comment on it anymore.

I suddenly feel my life is brighten up after yesterday. Something so happened to make my life changed. And im so high yesterday, even though im so down since morning class after that incident.

i haven eaten my lunch and dinner and don feel hungry at all. whahha... funny leh.. whahaha... so tired.... oh ya,... i trim my hair today. whahha... TRIM.... whahha

-soul.out.of.a.bottle-


xOOx - 10:24:00 pm



NEVER TRY TO TEST MY PATIENT.... I WARN ANYONE WHO WANT TO COMMENT... U WAN TO COMMENT KEEP UR FUCKING LANGUAGE TO URSELF AND DON COMMENT WITH IT...

I NOT TOKING ABOUT ly.... stroll down and see the another comment.... i don care who is it... you want to act secretive so be it... keep ur comment to urself then... i don need them...


xOOx - 11:56:00 pm



ARGH..... I FUCKING EMOTIONAL... FUCK FUCK FUCK... I FUCKING SICK ALSO... ARGHHHHHHHHH..... AM I THINKING TOO MUCH... HAIX HAIX...... FUCK FUCK FUCK.... SHOULD I WAIT OR SHOULD I JUST TELL...


xOOx - 11:37:00 pm



hmmmmm.. sian 1/2.... im sick and emotional now.... arghhhhh... why is it this past memory attacking me again.... haiz... im sadded by the past.... i miss my past... but everything have changed.... and is a fucking big change to me.... my heart is in a pain... why am i feeling in this way... argh....

how i wish i can tell her about this...
how i wish she is here...
how i wish blah blah blah...

haix... she she she.... there it go again... i stepping into another life.... and this life is counting down in 4 days... wad answer will i have... i miss her...


xOOx - 10:46:00 pm



today have been as per normal...
play bball after lecture....
something special will be went donate blood...
ho ho ho.. that fun... did something intersting in my life...
felt weak after that.. but recover after a nap when i got home...
i think i shall constantly go donate... it not even help me it also help the others...
hmmmmm... o m g.... i think the next 4 days will be going fine as it coming to a end and coming to a start...that all... shall turn out and get some rest....

xOOx - 11:44:00 pm



arghhhhhh.....
where are you????
sleeping?
busy?

arghhhhhh......

Should i tell her?


xOOx - 11:58:00 pm



Christmas Gift to someone
Starssssss

i did this for someone this christmas... stay up to 2am to fold them... wahhaa..


xOOx - 9:14:00 am



What a busy week since school started... i feeling tired... but feeling the fun out of it... im experiencing poly life which it shld be made to be... ho ho ho... first is study... it look slacking but lots to study too... and cca... gls started to be as fun as its be... ho ho ho...

ever since im back from the holi... i changed alot again... which i felt i did... for you all i dunno... ever since some problems and events arise... i have getting used to them and forgeting them as time goes by... soon it will be a new year... everything will start with a new story... a story which i hope to be happy and fun... i will put down wadever thing i left... and cont the story with a new page...

enough of serious talk... my brother is back from china... yeaaa... i will not be as bored as ever liao.. whahaha....


xOOx - 8:41:00 pm



I Dream

In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirits there, where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There s a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are

It doesn t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

Chorus 1:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

If there s a time in your life
When the odds are so against you
There s no defeat, if all you keep is pride

First or last
Slow or fast
There s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when world s have come apart

It doesn t matter rich or poor
Or the things you ve done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

Chorus 2:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream I can be
The hero that s in me
When I dream,

I dream
Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in

I dream
I can be
The hero that s in me
When I dream, I dream

------------------------------

going to sing this with the gls on staff and student day... whahaha...


xOOx - 6:30:00 pm



have not been updating the blog for the last few day... have been super busy in sch...

[12/12/04]

nothing really happened.. just go to sch.. have lecture, pract... everything have been so normal on that day....

[13/12/04]

have lecture at 1pm... came to sch to wish junwei happy birthday... haha.. disturb him.. wahaha.. then after that i pon the mst1 lecture.. sian... hmmmmm... nvm.... shall not say y i don wan to come...

[14/12/04]

sian... have a boring day.. but attended gls training.... fun and tiring... cos i nv slp well that night be4... whahaha... hmmm.. back to day during my ncc's days... whaha... quite fun la... shall cont to have this kind of trg more.. whahah.... my sadist character is back... 5! 4! 3! 2! 1! 1 push up! 5 push up! whole lot knock it down...wahhaha... my style... whaha... everyone in ncc know my way of sadist.. lol...




xOOx - 5:48:00 pm



whahaha... got this skin in blogskins... look cute that why i up it up... lol... click on those bottom and you will see the popout of the screen.. lol.. maple story... hehe...

11 Dec 2004:

Gls outing... at marine bay.. lol... fun fun... 23 ppl turn up for this outing.. lol... we waited for late comers for 1hr... whaha... then we move toward the super cue... to play pool... ho ho... won 2 game becos of black and white ball got in together.. lol... closed the table.. and went to acarde to play awhile.. lol... then move on for steamboat.. whaha... we are the nosiy grp over there.. pathetic... see them let that.. si bei paiseh... lol... ate and play and tok... whoooo.... wad a fun grpm to get along with... after that went to acarde again.. lol.... and i keeping stoning during the steamboat... *wake up* whahaha...


xOOx - 2:00:00 pm



have a long day today... have class since 10am... followed by a 2 hrs of lecture... i was there doing the prac hw la... nv listen to her... and have this bad headache after that... cos i nv like the feeling when i doing a maths question and ppl keep asking me question... but is okay la... after that lecture i abit face black black.. after a while im back to myself liao... make our way to mb prac and the lecturer is cute la.. whahaha... the way he tok is cute la.. lol

have about 2hrs of pract and we make our way to c3 for lunch... then make our way to convention and we started my bad throat problem.. lol... cheer our way tru.... finale... cheer the SOLID cheer and The Family song.... haha...

all the tea session. lol... nv ate but we play around with each other... lol... after that we made our way to beauty world food centre and have dinner... it look like a tok cock session la... whaha... only 4 person ate the other were toking all the way... lol...

took bus 67 home with lichong... he is the last soul surviour in the buddy thingy.. lol... i think he is quite interested in the life in np... cos of our group of ppl.. lol... he don only make fren with our class ppl... ppl of class too... lol....

busy sia... hj they call me to go 85 but cannot go.. lol... going mb with gls... i think i start neglect them liao... but they always choose 85 so far leh... v sian one....


xOOx - 10:56:00 pm

hahha... im just a slacker... nv go did my hw in the end... did this new layout... whahaha.... hmmmm... sian... hmmmmm....


xOOx - 12:07:00 am



Since school started, I have been actively update my bloggy. The frog in the house is hardworking. Let update about today. It's IS day today. Have class only in the afternoon. OralCom at 1pm, have some introduce section and brief about next week programme. After that was S&W, got to choose the activity I wanted. TENNIS. yeaaaaaa....

It was a short day today. Waited for nai ma and sheryl with yichao and took 61 to bb and took the mrt home. During the waiting, saw someone i don't wish to see. nvm forget it... i don't even wish to look at her. After that, make our ways home.

Tml will be a long day for me... 10am- 6pm... no breaks... 8hours... wow... song bo!!!! shall stop here and do my maths hw.... whahahha... good frog in the house... lol rabbit!


xOOx - 8:06:00 pm



have 1 hr tut in the morning...
went to pool factor again..
2nd time in a week...
im sick of pool soon...
out of form...
tiring...
went to sch to find liching to get my policy book...
then went back to pool factor...
up and down...
have lunch at beauty world...
late for lecture...
so dame tiring... but try to understand...
have ipc prac...
learn how to wash to appartus well...
went to canteen 2 to meet su su...
have chicken chop..
taste so sux..
went for the gls meeting...
have fun shooting at ppl...
catch out with those gls...
went to pool factor after the meeting.. wow.. sian..
then play for another hour or so of pool... still out form...
have 2 matchs with jeremy...
he's good...
i still learning my cutting skill.. getting better...
hehe...
i always have the serious look when playing pool...
influence by ray ys they all.. when play with them.. they damn serious one la...
play until 9pm.. then i left first...
so tired la...


xOOx - 10:19:00 pm



came sch early to have some game with the buddies....
play captian ball...
play bball...
have lurch with the buddy's mentor..
is pizza... ^-^
haha.. chit-chat with her....
she is a good lecturer la..
rush down to lt76 for MB lecture..
wad a lecturer we have...
now my name is yichao..
and yichao will be jason...
whahah... a joke of the day...
have MST1 lecture after that...
boring like hell...
wan to sleep sia...
trying to do the tut hw... but i missing something...
guess wad is it???
don tell you... lol
then was there chit chating with hs jf janis...
lecture ended...
took 61 with xiao zhu, nai ma, chao to bb...
tok all the way on the bus...
fun.... saw sheryl at bb mrt station...
i left first.. becos the mrt go to yew tee only..
whahha.... reach home... went out for a jog...
whooo... shiok.... it is so windy and good weather to run la...
jog for about 15 mins....
i only run when i usually down... lol.... but after that run i feel better...
ho ho ho... christmas is coming... lol...
maths hw is alot la... sian....
shall go mug liao..
gone...


xOOx - 10:39:00 pm



schhhhhh started....
wad a day...
saw my buddy...
quite steady type... but late today... nvm...
have some ice break with them...
quite lame la... whahah...
met up with the mentor... treating us pizza tml.. lol...
but tmr only 2 of the buddies will be there... the other 2 working...
brought them around...
after sch went to play pool...
lichong came with us...
steph is taller then then que stick.. lol...
i play until about 5pm i ciao..
took the same bus as lichong... chat chat a little...

that my day...
so damn tiring..
nv sleep well ytd....


xOOx - 9:56:00 pm



[mood: boring ]
[Listening: Alicia Key - Karma ]

Yeap... school starting tmr.... if will be a new start for me after a month of break.. it seem so many things happened this one month break... Tmr going to sch by 7.30 to meet up with those gls at the bus stop... so damn early la... sian diao... y cant meet at the LT there... argh... nvm la.... i think some of us going to pon lecture tmr... whahaha... how sick man... whahaha.... first day of sch spliot my image to pon class liao.. lol... but is a mass pon-ing section.. lol.. got alot of things to get in sch.. omg...

Things to Get

• MircoBiology Lecture Notes(Library Printing Shop)
• Mathematics and Statistics I Lecture Notes(Canteen 1 Printing Shop)
• IPC Lecture Notes(Library Printing Shop)

There is still textbook and S&W t-shit and short needed to buy... sian diao... broke liao la....


xOOx - 11:59:00 am



Nothing better to do at home... later going to pack my room look so messy... soon going to sch start again... happy happy... usually next week... whoooo.... to some they may think it sux to go to sch.. but to me it is fun... cos at least i wun be facing this empty house everyday.... my brother went china for yep... meaning from morning to about evening time it is empty.... even though i used to it... but hate this feeling of being alone....

just redid the layout of my private blog... i think it look nice to me... lol... got it from blogskin... lol... lasy to do myself.. lol... add password feature to it... so you all cant see it... :p i also don wish to open the public for viewing...

-where are you?-


xOOx - 2:19:00 pm



Change the blog address, hosted it at a new place, changed the layout of it. I am totally too bored already. Nothing better to do, I went to change the address of the blog and host it at the server of mine. jasonthefrog.com my new domain. so cute right. haha. Change the layout of the skin with some help of blogskin.com, the background of the skins there attract me so i used the background but changed the layout. lol....

today went to meet yichao at gombak and went to register our TT. after that we went to city area and do some shopping. but i just dont have the mood for shopping. i am so damn tired also.... that why i didn't brought any shirts. yichao got one black t-shirt.

walk around and sat at mac and talk for awhile. after that we make our way home. lol... both of us sleep our way through the mrt ride... so damn tired la...


xOOx - 10:13:00 pm

_2nd dec 2004:

went to school and meet the fellow gls for the briefing for the Project: Exploration next week. All GLs wore black top on that day. kind of seeing a sea of black that day. We were joking with yanjun all the way as we having briefing by him. ^lol^

After that we went into LT51b for another briefing by Mrs Tang. We got to know about the programme and the buddys attached to us. I got on this guy called Justin from AES. From the namelist, i don see anyone from my ex-sec school. Not steady at all. boooooo...

After briefing, then nai ma say want to go town and chill or not. Then i sian diao, i need to rush back home and off my labtop then go out meet them again. Catch up with them at PS, kopitiam. then we are gossiping about ^ahem^, our lao de. The content about should be kept secret. Then we made our way to Parklane to play pool. Our xiao zhu is learning how to play, and so excited when she hit the ball. Was shouting her way through the place. Luckly i'm at the other table. haha. I kind of tired playing pool, just played the day before. Then cannot really concentrate to play. All my ball out of play one.

Then suraj need to rush back, then i accompany him to take bus. Then just as i board the bus, i realise that my card is at the pool centre. Forgotten that i put down with the lady. Then took out all my coin to throw into the trip back home. Was talking with suraj all the way, talking about next week, talking about o's, alot. He is a fun guy to be with.

came home, on my labby and chat with alot of people loh. hehe.. and with ^ahem^.... Just read lao de blog, something about karma that i don't understand. ^lol^


xOOx - 1:30:00 am



Tired after so many days of fun. Yesterday, went to ubin with the GLs. It was so fun out there. The route that i used to take last time is totally different from those I took yesterday. We took those mountain trials. Up slope down slope, i am the back man with benjaime, someone I don't really see him in training for the past few weeks. I think he went for YEP. But like halfway through he not feeling well, so for safety purpose i told edmund that he should cycle in front then I was left behind alone to cover the back. It is good also, i can relax cycle my way through, looking around the place.

I going off to school now for briefing about next week exploration science for the 100 secondary school students. so tired... yawn


xOOx - 1:08:00 pm



Whats My Name?:: Jason
Whats My Middle Name?:: Jian
What Nicknames Do I have?:: jsn, pang, hum, sheng, pig, zhu ba jie, etc
Whens My Birthday?:: 14th Aug
How Old am I?:: 18
Whos My Best Friend(s)?:: hmmmmm.... alot la..
Where do I go to School?:: Ngee Ann Poly
What Grade am I in?:: BIO Yr1
What color is My Hair?:: black + some white here and there...
What color Are My Eyes?:: black?
Tall or Short:: average la.. 170 is tall or short?
Smart or Dumb:: average la... still can pass...
Weird or Normal:: weird sometime...
Unique or Original:: unique is good.. but tends to be original...
Am I Athletic?:: nia.... like to run but not one...
Am I a Nerd?:: some ppl think i look like one... -.-
Am I a Good Friend?:: maybe.. maybe not? what do you all think?
Am I Honest?:: 90% Honest 10% Not
Loud or Quiet?:: loud and quiet
Shy or Outgoing?:: outgoing is my character now... used to be shy...
Am I Crazy?:: i am crazy always...
Am I Annoying?:: maybe...
What Kind of Music do I Like?:: anything nice...
Am I Mature for My Age?:: yup but sometime miss to be a child... lol
What is my Favorite Song?:: anything nice = favorite
Whos My Favorite Band?:: Keane + Simple Plan + Jet
Whats My Favorite Color?:: red + orange + black + white
Whats My Favorite Movie?:: alot tooo...
When I get older will I get Married?:: yes, why not....
If So, To Who?:: to the girl in my heart..
Do I have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend?:: nope
If So Whats Their Name?:: dont have how to tell..
Give Me ONE Word that Describes Me:: zhu....


i am super bored... copy and paste from frenster bulletin board.... argh....


xOOx - 8:59:00 pm

It have been a happy week last week until thursday late night. Suddenly I think I have made the right choice this time round. There was alot of things happened last week. I found out that I like someone. I scolded and shouted at my parent for their childish behaviour. I found out that I have a batch of best friends. I gave up one venture and concentrate on the other one. I change quite alot this few weeks.

I have not give peiyi and the group the answer. Is an answer that save the whole friendship. Which I haven't think about it since the incident happened at home. I am always busy, I been trying to find time to go out with them but I can't.

Last thursday, I was happily back from sentosa but my parents just make my happy day into my super angry day. They started to quarrel about things that happened for the past 10+ years, I came out and called my brother out too. That when i can't stand already, I shouted at them and shouted them from bottom to top. My brother also start to scold them after that. Some of you may think I have a happy family but I don't. For the past how many years, they just will quarrel in or out of the house. I hate them.

Shall not talk about it. On friday, timon birthday. Didn't have the mood, but i still went to sentosa to celebrate for him. Yichao and me brought a cute condom and one box of normal on for him. What we did on that day, you shall find out yourself.

Saturday, went to school to pass peiying her birthday present. After that, went to town to meet milton and rongjun to go STIX to check up the rack over there. Did some configuration to the switch, but still cannot connect to the connection. So we made our way to Sim Lim to ask for help but it seem that the switch is alright. Then, Milton called the support to ask it is then we found out that we need to configure all the IPs, Gateways ourselves with the list given to us. We brought some LAN wire back to make it neater at the rack. Test the network with my labtop and it look fine to me. Went to the pantray, and we talk about the business. It is when I make my mind to give up the other venture. I took over the contract over there, did the payment and took out the server. Did OT that day. Brought the server back to STIX and put into the rack. Everything was done, and it is already 10pm. Took a cab home, lazy to take bus.

Sunday, have durm lesson in the afternoon and its my brother's birthday. Got a T-shirt at F-Men after my durm lesson and went to jurong point to meet him for dinner. My hated parents went to wedding dinner. Have Fish&Co for dinner. Then shop around with him. That my whole week of happy but sad, good but bad week.

-hopes-


xOOx - 6:12:00 pm



it is fate when you know some friends... and only a small number of them will only understand you.... for it i call them my best friends.... thanks man....

_________

Perfect
Simple Plan

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect



xOOx - 1:54:00 pm



I HATE MY PARENTS.... THEY SUCK TO THE CORE.... FUCK THEM.... FUCK FUCK FUCK.... DON'T COME AND DULAN ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!


xOOx - 1:45:00 am



I have a chat with peiyi just now. sigh. I don't know what to do next. She is the reason I have been giving in so much for this group of friends. She was right I don't wish to break this friendship and I don't want to. I don't what have happened to me, I'm thinking off this few days. I can felt that something big going to happen and its bad. Now, I can't sleep, its like yesterday but at least i force myself to bed yesterday. Not today. I don't know why.

My msn nick put sleeping because i don't wan anyone to disturb me. I watched The Incredibles just now on my labtop, funny movie. Trying to laugh during to funny part but I can't. Just thinking what have happened. Tears was running round my eyes, how weak am I. And this is me, I'm soft and easily affected.

sigh. I don't know what should i do? I keep listening to Simple Plan - Untitled, is like a song for dilemma. Look like the situation i having now.

_.sign off:
(=-=dilemma=-=)


xOOx - 2:03:00 am



I'm sick of explaining this, and hearing explaination anymore. Friends come friends go, maybe you all are the one that goes. Or i should say i am the one who left. That all i wish to say, I don't blame whose fault is it, I just treated it is mine. If you think that I'm the one who break that trust or should i say bond. Talking more about it just spliot my day, I not a kid anymore. I don't say friend or don't friend this kind of thing. I just think we once know each other that fate already, if you all can't beleive about this fate then I shall not to. I have been believing that 4 of us will go on long enough but for now I only picture only 3 of you and I not there. If you all think that you can't trust me then some secret i have been hidden in me shall have risen long ago.

You 3 can happily go have fun and I don't wish to care anymore. Fuck care.....

_________________

_.22 Nov 2004: I went to gym with chao today. Meet him at Clementi at 11:30. Some normal weight training here and there. Train until about 1pm going to 2pm, then did some wash up and have lurch at one of coffee shop out there. I called Darius after seeing 2 missed call by him, but I got an unpleasant reply that spliot my mood. I shall not talk about it, he and his group should know what is it. After lurch, went to orchard to get timon birthday present. Shouldn't say what is that. Timon, you will know on friday.

After getting it, when window shopping with Yichao. Went Paragon Quiksilver shop and look at shorts. I saw one of the sweater that i like alot, but quite expensive. I'm broke. We moved on to Heeren and look around. We took bus down to Penisular Plaza and he brought me to this few shop, the shirts and shorts are my taste, tempted to get them. Maybe next week, I will come down again with him to shop for them.

Went to bugis after that, walk around bugis street and Bugis junction. Then sat down at mos for a drink because i need to wait for milton to go Sim Lim Square to get the switch. So I and yichao there talk cock. Then after that i went to meet milton and got theswitch and i went to bugis street to shop alone and I saw a bag, when the guy introduce I straight away like it. I asked for a red but out of stock, then got my next colour, orange. Suddenly i remember something, why i like orange also because of someone. sigh. Forget it. Got the orange one and transfered everything over to that bag, i don't want to carry a big pastic bag around. After that took bus 67 back home.

_.23 Nov 2003: I woke up at 7:30am. Get change and get ready to go out and meet milton and rongjun at comcentreIII. Did the mounting of the switch at the rack. And went to the pantray and talk cock after that. All about tiger(only 3 of us know what is that), business, servers, etc. And after that I went home and rot until now.


My new bag... ^-^


picture of shirt and shorts i brought a few weeks ago..


picture of me... fake simile because i not feeling good today...

xOOx - 3:55:00 pm



I don't want to care liao..... FUCK CARE!!!!!! If this so, don't ever come talk to me then. Friends also need to hide, then fuck off this friendship then. 2 years and i got all this shit, I don't know what to say. I don't wish to care anymore.


xOOx - 10:46:00 pm



"How are you?" This three is so easily said out from anyone mouth but it seem so hard for me to even type it out and send to someone now. How pathetic am i now. Because I am the one that caused all this to happen. Sometime I ask myself, "Are you crazy or what?" What I can answer back is that, "I just can't face it!" I have been trying my best to get through it, but I try all kind of ways but in the end I am back to the starting point. I hate myself more than i hate anyone in my life.

I start to make more friends but I had just loss a friend that I didn't wish to loss. Is all my fault. Saying goodbye to a friendsip which i have try so hard to pull back and now i ruin everything. Goodbye~

Looking into my past, the last 18 years, what have I done? Making someone i loved, to hate me now also. sigh~

I came back from camp with a feeling I have not have for quite long. But I don't know am i really ready for it. And with something blocking the way, making me to think twice.

Sign off;
(_.a heart without a soul:)

Untitled
Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me


xOOx - 9:57:00 pm





I'm back from my 3D2N adventure. This LSCT camp was a memorable one. We get to know our fellow GLs more and our seniors too. Suddenly, I got that bond i used to have when I'm NCC. Alot of things happened during the camp. The most unforgetable will be the SCANDAL of Su Kwan and Bernard. Those who didn't join and come for the camp should regret.


The GLs family have been giving scandal around. I once gotten in and I'm out of it. Lets me post something about the last 3days. The first day usually all of the campers will look tired but after some games all of us get used to life there and we start having fun. First, was some ice breaker game where we get to know our group members.

Then we have our lurch cook by Eugene, our boss. Even though it is abit too oily but its nice. After lurch, we have a another few group games at land and sea. There it come our group teamwork and spirits come. Time flys whenever we are having fun. Its time for dinner after this 2 games. Its field cooking, it has been ages when i last did my field cooking. But for us, we didn't cook our instant noodles, we ate it raw. Because of this, the SGLs keep coming and say, "are sure you going to eat this only?". all came to ask us this question. LOL

After dinner we have night games, this where the scandal of su kwan and bernerd started. I would not tell you what happened during this game. We have game until about 10+ at night. And we went back to bunk area and prepare for Tribal Concil. That night after summaries the day off, we have a singing session. The SGLs sang a song for us, it is a nice song but i forget what is that title. We sing-a-along with it. After that we sang "On The Top of World" and we ended this session. We went back to bunk area and start our washing up. Lights off at 1am. I can't really sleep that day, because it was so hot and noisy. Noises caused by the SGLs out at kitchen area. I know that I kept waking up through the night.

Woke up at 7am and went to do some wash up. Have our breakfast and we went to the field to have our first game of the day. WATER BOMB. First part of it, we will be bomb but we can't bomb the senior. But the second part, we got one bomb each to bomb them. All of us all bomb Mahathir and some SGLs.

After that, we have wash up and lurch. Treasure hunt after that, we are the second group who found all the clue, but before that there some funny part to it. We are to remember the history of St John Island to get help from our leader. We took like 30 mins to remember just 7lines of words.

After treasure hunt is free time for us to prepare for our performance until dinner, BBQ. I shouldn't talk anything about the preformance because it is only for Tonawanda people to know. Initially, the BBQ is to be done by us, but the SGLs are the best, the prepare for us in the end. Thanks to all my senior, they are just family to us. After dinner, there is this confidence walk where all of us is bindfolded and was brought around the bunk area. It just like OBS where did that.

Preformace after that, where all of us have preformance. After preformance there is this 100sec No NG game we have to finish it. Free-time up to the next day morning. We have a talk cock session at the BBQ area, play some logic game. After that, Mahathir brought us to the beach for a Star-viewing class. The sky was so beautiful that night. I not going to forget the sky that night. The star there is somewhere you would not be able to see at mainland.

Then Eugene brought us for a fish viewing class at the jetty. There is where a joke came out from jessie. "Eugene, now then i know you are so knowlegdable," then eugene with a stone face say " meaning i don't last time."

After that, we say near the beach area and start chatting with each other. Then Eugene talk about his GLs past and some NS talk among the guys. As Eugene to get back to prepare breakfast so all of us went back. Then Yichao , some gls and me help up with Eugene to prepare the breakfast. We stay up the whole morning to prepare the breakfast. There is when we knew eugene more. We talk alot that whole morning. At about 5+ we are all done and some slept on the table some went to the and slept. For me, i went back to bunk and pack up and took my tooth brush and facial cleaner to toilet. After wash up, i walk into the kitchen and slept. Too tired already. I slept until about 7am and went back to call some of fellow up to get ready for the packing up.

have breakfast and area cleaning after that. We got everything done at about 9am. And there Alvin, Suraj, yichao, me start thinking about cheers for those SGLs in the kitchen first is Eugene then Edmund, then KC. It is so fun. Then Pamela come and get camera from me to take photos for them, there it started the photo taking session for all the gls.

Alot of fun event after that, like the vugalar game, then SuBer! game, etc. Language that only the gls there know. LoL.

3D2N that will a memorable one. I suddenly got the feeling like when I'm in NCC. The camps i gone through, like OBS, like Specialist course, etc. The feeling of making new friend and knowing them better. I never regard joining GLs. Is totally fun.

-The End-



xOOx - 9:34:00 pm



It have been so long i really post something here. I should say that i have not been blogging for very long even my new blog. I just feel so out of myself this few days. My attitude towards alot of people changed. Last saturday, was alone walking around in the late afternoon until night. First, I was at Queenway. I went to shop for shorts and shirt. I got one bermudas and one shirt there. After that, i went to take bus 14 to orchard. Stopped at Lucky Plaza. I went to Ngee Ann City. You may think that walking alone in orchard sound so stupid. But I did that. I walked to Kinokuniya. Was looking around for books to read. And I walk toward somewhere I felt so familiar. I took one of the Channel [A] book out. And i remember something. Someone did tell me that this is a nice chinese book to read. I smiled and put it back. There only left 2 out of the 5 books left. I never forget that.

I walked toward taka. Saw some of working friends at the business wear side. Just said hi and i walked away. Went out of Ngee Ann City after that, i walked towards Heeren. Went to a few shop then stopped at HMV. I was listening to Simple Plan new album, sounded nice and was tempted to buy it. But I think i going to get after my camp. Then after that I decided to go to Sim Lim Square. Took the MRT down and walked toward Sim Lim. I never feel so alone before, when you feel that there nothing left for you to aim for. Anyway went to get Total Manager 2005 and 50 CD-R discs to burn out some movie in this labtop. Wanted to get the 256mb or 512mb memory stick for my camera but the salesman was so unfriendly, making me changed my mind.

After that went to take 67 back home. On the bus, before rachel called me I felt so alone and thinking about the last few day event which caused so many incident. I feel so fuck up with myself why i am so useless. Maybe that the end of our friendship? I really don't know. Then rachel called. Someone who i talked to whenever i am down but I never tell her that i'm feeling down. She is someone who can make me happy when i'm down. Talked for awhile then she held up. Then i was left alone thinking of alot of things.

I left myself with fault here and there. Things happened all because of me and i am always the one at fault. The one who caused the things to happen. sigh.....

I have not seem you online for a few days. Did you blocked me? Did you deleted my contact?

I will be away for camp for the next few days. Meaning i will not be online, will not answer your call, will not reply your message. But something will still be there, the feeling of lone person.

Exam Result

PHYSIOLOGICAL SYSTEMS D+

CELL BIOLOGY C

INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY AND PROGRAMMING B+

UNDERSTANDING WRITING FOR ACADEMIC APPL D+

CREATIVITY AND APPLIED THINKING SKILLS C+

IT APPLICATIONS A

ORGANIC & BIOLOGICAL CHEMISTRY C


All passed but I feel i should work harder and get better result next time. But the happy things is that i passed everything which make me think that nothing is immpossible but if one work hard he/she sure can get it.


_.sign off:

(A Guy with a lone heart, broken into pieces.)

_____________________

183俱乐部
折磨


The wall

看你哭着转身就走 我却不知该说什么
是我害你一个人难过 每次想到我就好心痛

为何命运如此捉弄 爱在手中又逃走
想说爱你却开不了口 在你面前我变得懦弱

# 到底怎么了请你告诉我 让我相信
在我们的爱情一道墙矗立 挥之不去
明明相爱却不能长久 最后还是无法去承受

心若死了要怎么救 想你恨你只更折磨
白天黑夜不停缠着我 每次想到心就会喊痛

Repeat #

Do you want me I need to know
Can you feel it let it show
I can't hide it deep within myself
Everytime I look at you I know

Repeat #

到底怎么了请你告诉我 让我相信 (让我相信)
在我们的爱情一道墙矗立 挥之不去 (挥之不去)
明明相爱却不能长久 (爱不能长 oh)
最后还是无法去承受 (我无法承受)

xOOx - 11:49:00 pm



firstly, im back becos some idiot who don like their name and like to post using my name on my tagboard... humji ar... fuckers.... i wun watch my language about this... scold wad ever you like you fucker... it is just scolding yourself... cos you don even like your own name... watch wad you post cos your fucker mouth is just dirty... knn...

becs of this i will close my tagboard... anything.. post at the comment...

anyway i got back my exam result and i passed... even tot is not that good but i will started working hard from now on... no more slacking...


xOOx - 10:42:00 pm



周杰倫
開不了口

才離開沒多久就開始 擔心今天的妳過得好不好
整個畫面是妳 想妳想的睡不著
嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣 還有在妳身上香香的味道
我的快樂是妳 想妳想的都會笑


Chorus 1
沒有妳在我有多難熬
(沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)
沒有妳煩我有多煩惱
(沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)
穿過雲層 我試著努力向妳奔跑
愛才送到 妳卻已在別人懷抱

Chorus 2
就是開不了口讓她知道
我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑
妳對我有多重要 我後悔沒讓妳知道
安靜的聽妳撒嬌 看妳睡著一直到老
就是開不了口讓她知道
就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到
整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著
這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我




xOOx - 6:32:00 pm

I think "I hate you" from my previous post make someone think i hating her... if u think that person is you.. i got nothing to say already.... quote from ur msn... "*u HaTe mE? nVm, cUz | hAv nV L|kE u b4*....."

i didnt wan to post anything on this blog anymore... but to make it clear that if you think it is you then it is you... you wan to be that you just be it... im sick of explaining everything.... i know you don like me... then be it... i only get hurt from it and facing it with reality...

enough of explaination... hidden back...


xOOx - 5:24:00 pm

Someones Watching Over Me
Hilary Duff

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me



xOOx - 3:21:00 am



just finish lurch with my parents... sian man... life is so sucky... sometime things happened so fast that u dunno wad to do... it may seem that it is nothing to u already but just a small event may affect you... hate it... when someone need u then he/she then come tok to u... when they don need u they just kick u one side.. when u chat to them they are away... haix... maybe they are just not fated to you ba.... face the fate ba...

did i did the right thing? hope i did it right ba... hmmmm.... i suddenly feel so tired of the life i living in... can someone come in and change it for me... how long will it take to change someone character... ten years... one month... one day.. one min.. one sec... should i say no one can change their character... it is always my this character that cos this all problem that happened... hai.. or it is me, myself is the problem... i also dunno...

love to me has lost it meaning already... the everlasting love i have been seeking for.. will never come... i hope that someday somewhere i can find that someone.. but for now... i have stop seeking... and thats me... the same old me... with the same old attitude...

the world would not stop spinning just because you are sad... so life must go on... i hate you!!!!!!




xOOx - 1:38:00 pm



today is jo-n 18th bday... happy birthday... afternoon went to NDC for my dental appointment.. today change the wire to a thicker one.. lol... i think i use to it liao.. not so pain liao... whaha... after that went to tampines to meet ray and hj to get jo-n present...

after tat went to PR and meet jeff... then we went to jo-n hse for steamboat... lol... ate quite alot.. lol... tok also... so long nv gather liao.. the last time we gather is on jeff bday... whaha.... ho ho.. jo-n mother stylo... ask us wan to DRINK or not... then we say don wan... but she still call the maid to go buy... diao... in the end i like go drink at least 3 mugs of beer... i haven tipsy yet... just face red just now.. lol....

then as usual.. cut cake.. eat cake.. then play cake.. lol.. headache now... whaha... tml got trg at pan pac... whaha... meeting at 11:45... ho ho... i think shall be late.... whaha...

they now went to catch a mibnight show.. i nv went.. cos of kena debar from going out late.. sound stupid.... argh.. i hate her... argh.... tat why now i tok to her everytime also like bs one..

time to slp... i am so tired... whaha...


xOOx - 1:18:00 am



just downloaded My Date with a Vampire 3... cant version... hmmm... lucky got subtitle.. whaha.. at least i can read and listen at the same time... whaha... i got esp1-7 liao... current lastest one is 8... using BT to download that lastest esp.. whaha... this drama is nice... can go catch it if u are able... heard is out in vcd already... nvm....

tml going to NDC for my appointment... and i dunno shld come back home first or straight away go out liao.. cos going to jo-n's hse to celebrate her 18th bday with the guys and gals... meaning i must go all the way to paris ris liao... how sick man... whahah.. nvm la...

this few days i have been rotting ard... whaha.. surfing forum and blog jumping and reading some books.... abit boring about this holiday... i feel like giving tuition for maths, science... but so long never really touch maths liao... scared i cant teach properly... haha.. see first la... whaha...

Download My Date With Vampire 3(BT)

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xOOx - 10:30:00 pm

woke up today with aching all over my body... whahah... ytd physical training with the gls really work on me... wahha... ytd we have a 5hrs training... even tot like only 30+ ppl attended only we still carry on.. whaha... there is 2 parts of the training... we started the first part having the physical training... warm up and job one round around the school... the jog part is so easy.. whaha... maybe i have been training ba... or it is they run too slow liao.. lol...

after jogging... we have wad i call physicial and mental training.. whaha... the level to it is still low.. whaha... i gone tru that be4 during the ncc camp and training last time... but it have been very long when i gone tru another one.. lol...

that is the first part... we have our lurch break and we carry on the second part... where we learn cheers and songs... whaha... quite fun... sometime i regard joining the campfire where there is every year... haha.. some songs we learn all come from there whaha... remember some already.. whaha..

we clown the dum dum dilly king and queen.. whaha... funny... only those gls will know wad is that for...wahhha...

today done nothing.... just as usual rotting... watch some drama.... and my usual nap but a stupid msg make me wake up just 15 mins later... i dunno why suddenly i hate replying that msg... cant that person stop msg me... it has been months and that person still cant get the answer i wan to tell meh... and stop looking for my fren and tell them to call me to look for u... i wun... i don think u able to see this and so be it... i may be harsh and that me....

sian... my character and attitude keep changing ever since dunno when... i must try to control them or one day.. i dunno wad gotta happened...

since after i make up my mind... i nv wan to get into another relationship in this short term of time... it seem im not ready for one.. or is it i still cant find that one in my life.... shouldnt think too much about that... i still can live without love.... lol....

7 more days to go when my result will be out... pray hard that that i am able to pass all of them... i don wish to waste time on them.. please...

shall go start practise my drum... whaha... gone~


xOOx - 3:05:00 pm




6 friends 6 hearts.... but one story... one never ending story....

xOOx - 1:10:00 am




still strong after cycle for 5hrs...all still look happy...

xOOx - 11:34:00 pm


the 6 strong men cycling in ubin....

xOOx - 11:32:00 pm

ho ho ho... so tiring.. im back from pulan ubin in peace.... hehehe... cycle the whole day... my leg is going to break soon... the bad keencap is injury last time and i force to cycle it today... ho ho... and it become worse...

went there with ray, hj, ys,jeff, jerry... cycle all the whole ubin... wahaha.. wanted to find wild boar... but cant find.. haha... and it is raining and stopping and rain again... going to catch a cold le... whaha... cycle to one part of the island when there is this dog keep folowing us.. whahaha... but in the end it stopped... whaha....

then we was at the NPCC campsite... there is this grp of npcc cadet having their camp... and it is raining.. so we need to seek the hut their using... whaha.. firstly... there is this ger attract me... wahha... she's cute... whaha.. but sec2 only... whaha.. secondly they in charge there suck man... all my fren today are all ex-ncc like me.. wahaha.. we were there saying this and that.. whaha...then that ger's grp go liao to another station... whahah.. another grp got so monster... whaha.... then the rain stopped... and we can move on... whahha... we caught up with that grp.. whaha.. but that stupid in charge call then to contacted... meaning like there is enemies in front and they need to suddenly lied on the floor... whahah.. so poor thing... but im used to it already.. whaha

whaha.. then raced back to the bicycle shop... sure is i last de.. cos of my keen cap... whaha... then after that wash up and caught the boat back to mainland... ate at changi and went back.... shall keep it short... im sick... i caught a cold liao... no mood to write about today liao.... now uploading the pic to the webserver for my frens to dl... whaha...

xOOx - 9:47:00 pm



ho ho ho... just finish watching the doll master.... nice show... rating i give 3/5 whahaha.... ho ho ho... i just like drum... just finish another another day of drum class... and is so fun.... whooo... tml ubin expedition with my sec fren... whahaha... sian need to wake up early...going to slp soon.. and my stupid aircon is dripping water...argh....

_________________

> I'd like to address a problem that is so common
> that it seems silly to even mention it.
>
> It's the idea that too often we use our powerful
> minds and emotions to cause ourselves to FAIL with
> women rather than SUCCEED with women.
>
> Fear of women can actually become a HABIT that
> leads to failure.
>
> Let me ask you a question:
>
> Have you ever been in a situation where you saw
> a woman that you wanted to meet, but you didn't go
> over and talk to her?
>
> Duh. Of course... we all have.
>
> This is a UNIVERSAL. We've all been there so many
> times that the question doesn't even need to be asked.
>
> But the question I want to answer is "Why?"
>
> Why is it that when we see a woman that we'd like
> to me we don't just walk over and start talking to
> her?
>
> What is it that we're doing inside of our heads
> that is preventing us from just DOING IT?
>
> Why do we do to prevent ourselves from being
> successful, when it would be SOOOO EASY?
>
> And an even MORE interesting question is:
>
> How do we overcome this self- defeating pattern
> of thought and action?
>
> I have one friend who I've seen get 25 phone numbers
> over the course of a weekend (I saw him get every one
> of them)... and all of them were from women that he
> had met on the spot.
>
> Most of them took less than 5 minutes to get.
>
> Now, I have many OTHER friends that can't even
> ask a woman for her number after they've talked to
> her a HUNDRED TIMES... and they KNOW she's single.
>
> By the way, I have a LOT more of this type of
> friend...
>
> So what the hell is going on here?
>
> Well, like most answers to questions like this
> one, the explanation and solution is both very simple
> and VERY complex.
>
> The short answer is that most of us guys let
> our initial EMOTIONAL REACTIONS and our IMAGINATIONS
> to keep us from taking action.
>
> In other words, we see a woman we'd like to meet,
> we become nervous (for reasons we can't explain logically),
> we feel FEAR, we make all kinds of negative MENTAL
> IMAGES, and we finally just decide that it isn't worth
> it... so we just walk away.
>
> But isn't this CRAZY behavior?
>
> I mean, it doesn't make any sense at all when you
> REALLY reflect and think about it, right?
>
> Doesn't it make sense that we should just REALIZE
> that nothing bad is going to happen, and instantly
> change how we behave towards women?
>
> Now that we KNOW what we do, shouldn't we be able
> to just walk out the door and start meeting women
> RIGHT NOW?
>
> Well, yes... we SHOULD be able to do that.
>
> But like I mentioned, there's an aspect of this
> problem that is very COMPLEX... and therefore not
> as easy to change quickly.
>
> As any dog trainer will tell you, a bad HABIT isn't
> always easy to change. If you've been doing this for
> awhile, then it might take more than just some positive
> thinking to get this handled.
>
> I just read a fascinating book called "Mean Genes"
> awhile back that was written by a couple of evolution
> specialists (Terry Burnham and Jay Phelan).
>
> Inside this book, these guys point out that humans
> are HORRIBLE at assessing risk and return, and that
> they often make horrible decisions for themselves.
>
> But here's the kicker: We all make the SAME risk/return
> mistakes in the SAME situations... and this is most
> likely a GENETIC pre-disposition!
>
> In other words, WE'RE BORN WITH IT.
>
> So you might see a woman that you'd like to talk
> to, then use your imagination to create some painfully
> scary ideas about how you might get rejected (which
> wouldn't happen in a million years) and then you feel
> a wave of fear and nervousness wash over your entire
> body... and you decide it's just not worth it, so you
> walk away.
>
> This is that "automatic bad risk/return system"
> in action.
>
> And often, these poor decisions cause us to say
> to ourselves "Damn it. Why do I keep doing that? I'm a
> such a loser..." and we beat ourselves up even MORE
> over it.
>
> As you know, these can become self-fulfilling
> prophesies and just make themselves BIGGER over time.
>
> So what's the answer?
>
> Well, first you have to BREAK THE HABIT of making
> yourself feel BAD and AFRAID, and LEARN the habit
> of making yourself feel GOOD and OPTIMISTIC.
>
> Remember, you've been doing things the way you
> do them for a long time now, so it might take some
> PRACTICE to be able to do this in the moment every
> time you need to...
>
> Here are some action steps:
>
> 1) Take some time to vividly imagine the BEST possible
> outcome of walking up and talking to a woman that
> you find attractive. Every time you see a woman that
> you'd like to meet, just do this. Try it for a few
> days. Then realize that this BEST outcome is far more
> likely than your WORST idea of what could happen. Read
> that again. Your BEST outcome IS FAR MORE LIKELY than
> your worst.
>
> 2) Make a "realistic" list of the worst things that
> could happen, then decide exactly what you'd do if
> any of them actually did happen. You'll realize that
> you can deal with them and live through it.
>
> 3) Realize that NOT taking the risk to meet a woman
> is actually a BIGGER risk in the LONG RUN of your
> overall life. If you risk NOT meeting her, you'll
> never know what might have happened, and if you let
> it become a habit, it will keep you from realizing
> ALL your dreams in life.
>
> Think about it... in any given situation, YOU have
> the opportunity to make a "free bet": Your bet is
> you walking over and starting a conversation.
>
> Possible loss: Getting turned down.
>
> Possible gain: Use that creative imagination.
>
> You do the math.
>
> This is like going to Las Vegas and having a casino
> say to you "OK, you can bet all day long as much as
> you want. If you win, you keep all the money. If you
> lose, you lose nothing."
>
> Are you with me?
>
> Use this concept to go out and overcome your habit
> of not talking to women. Do it now.

xOOx - 10:56:00 pm



ho ho ho... just like the this song i just downloaded... linkin park - my reason... i think shld be the new song ba.. lol... today i stay at home the whole day... i just went to the gym in the early afternoon... ho ho... then surfing and have a good nap just now... whahhaa.... and i watch the movie, Face... i downloaded so long ago.. ho ho.... shld i say it is not even a ghost story.... it is like catching the killer...ho ho...

i now downloading the doll master.. hehe... shall be up in about 6 hrs time ba... whahah... holiday is so dead leh.... i think i need to find programme ready for next week.... shld be going down to tamp to play bball and soccer... sushi buffet.... hmmmm... movie maybe... see first... i need to pay bill... how sick.... next sat i got training for the banquet....

bored bored.... later got WWE Special No Mercy... whahah... at least got something to watch.... even tot wrestling is abit lame... whahaha.... now i watching the SG Idol Encore.... that epd that i nv watch... hmmmm...

tts all i shall be back again.. :p

im back again to blog... it is 12:43am le.. whaha.. im still watching tv.. whahah... just update about this new layout of mine... i added a new tagboard, added a radio blog into it... there some song i added into it already... ho ho... can try listening to some nice song... whahaha.... usually linkin park - my reason.. whahah...

boring.. sian... the doll master i download no subtitle... stupid.. how i going to know wad they saying.. argh.... that all.. back to tv... :p

timon... take care... be happy boy....

(2:07am) oh man... is so early now...and i still haven slp... whahaha... shall sleep soon... ho ho...if nothing wrong.. monday will be going to ubi with my secondary sch fren... cool... but going to wake up early to meet them... oh man.. why must i stay so far... argh.... distance is always the problem... anyway i love wad i am now... i have totally gave up everything already... now i just felt that i shld have fun... but i hate being tie to.... argh.... cant i have some freedom... forget it.. tok about it make me angry only... shall sleep... hope to dream of the ONE later... but i dunno who will be that ONE... don be a monster can le... sweet dream....

xOOx - 9:00:00 pm



haha... feel so bo liao... change the layout of the blog again... this time i named it "Heart2Heart" whahaha.... too bo liao... whaha... ver3 under the design of me, Jason Netstudio Design ... whahah....

today went for the registering of the banquet job at pan pac... next sat got training.. how stupid... then after that when town with ys hj ray... haha... today.. ray kena shoot until nothing to say... gave the wrong direction and took the wrong bus at the wrong time... whaha... we took 16 to taka there.. then rain heavily.. whahah... we waited until it get smaller than we started running to cine... long john there.... whaha...

when we ran in that time.. suddenly we all just being stare by the ppl in the long john... whaha.... and my hair all from up to down... whaha... then went to toilet and clean up.... and went to long john and ate... after that just shop ard and walk ard...

about 5+ i left and go home... im so broke that i need eat at home... whaha.... sian... tml shall stay at home.... whaha.... that all for today.... haha...
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我让你走了
潘玮柏

我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落
没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说
就算再怎么舍不得
你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实
怎么会变成这个样子
没有了
我真的什么都没有了
就象一个废人
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了
我让你走了Baby



xOOx - 10:16:00 pm

For a long time
I knew that you would go
Some day...
And now that time has come
So fast... too fast!

I remember all the times
The times that you saved me, held me
Your touch, so gentle and warm
Your voice, so calm and brave
But that's all over...

I don't want you to leave!

Tears roll over my cheecks
With your gentle touch, you whipe away my tears
One last time...

Your smile tells me not to cry
Not to cry for you

One last time, you whisper in my ear
"I'll allways be with you, in your heart"

You smile, one last time

Before I know it, you're gone
You're gone ... forever aren't you?

... My love is gone
... You're gone
... Atem
____________________

For all reading this.... love is something you hope to have but sometime you just cant get what you want.... something which you need to understand.. you need to know... you need to feel... you need to get hurt.... but when the day love come... some will just forget about that... when it is gone... you start to regret... thats me.... i regret alot... wad about you? if i ever to choose... i will love that girl as much as possible and not letting her giving me up.... but this is wad i say... will i able to do that... as a promise i will do that... but will you do that? this is up to you.... maybe i felt better to live wad i am now... i gave up to cont... did i did the right thing? i also dunno... to some or even her... i did the right thing...

cycling that day... when i was cycling at the front... alone... i think about alot of thing... alot alot... from frens to alot of things.... i felt like i changed alot after this few incident which happened from sec4 onwards.... shld i say i grew up? i also dunno how to explain... love to me has change meaning... i don find it not as strong as last time.... last time i use to love a ger until to the top... now i just can say i like someone.... LOVE... it is so easy to come out from my mouth that it come no meaning to it.... but those girls who i did loved... i put all my feeling to it....

for this 18 years of my life.... i only did really loved 2 girls be4... but both hurt me equally.... and also gave me the best memories of my life.... i suddenly so emotional... hmmmmm... but im ok.... after i made my decision that time... i hope that i did the right thing after all... everyone just need love.... but for me i dont have any.. even my family... i now just being irritated by my mum.... don talk about it...

love? it is so hard to define... but at least i have this circle of frens.... those from np and those from my sec sch.... i put priority to frens than my family...

this few days im just too emotional... but i nv tell anyone... haix... i also don wish to say.... maybe one day i can find that ONE in my heart.... but for now... i shall cont my quest tru life.... that it.. i shall go slp... is kinda late....


xOOx - 2:29:00 am



yoz yoz.. im back after 3 days... went to aloha loyang chalet.... fun... on the first... we prepare for the the bbq the next day... haha.. nv get ready... so keep nv got all the things we need.. whahaha.... the first night im having a bad headache so i went to slp early at bout 2am like that.... then woke up at about 9.30am... ho ho... first time benny woke up early... lol he woke up about the same time as me... haha.... then benny and me tok and he went to cook instant noodle... whaha... but i don feel like eating... so i say cook me out...

after that... we waited.... slowly aaron and hansheng woke up also...haha.. then we 4 tok and watch cartoon... lol.. and until about 11+am then we called yichao up and then timon. we went to downtown and have our breakfast and then went to loyang point and get some equipment. then went to PR park and get overnight bicycle... cycle back to our chalet... took out the chicken wing and they wanted to play bball... but i sian don wna to play bball leh... then they say wan to swim or not.. then i say okay loh... whaha... have fun... then about 5 like tt.. we went back to start fire...

like everything we are doing... nvm la... if they don wan to do.. you force also no use... i used to it already... from the last chalet with my classmate... but at least they appreaciate all you done... then ms ng came... tok abit there and her... then we all so hot then we jump back into the swimming pool.. whahha... then wanted to build human tower.... but is late liao... so cannot swim.... so go to chalet and cont bbq and drank volka... whooo....

watch the 9pm channel 8 show then went to join timon, the 'High' nadia and yichao to play ball... then kenny say wan to play street soccer with the guys there... then we formed a team... don wan t say... whahah.. we lost and lost... the floor is one thing.. the other... is maybe we first play together.. not use to to each other playing style... shall play soccer somedays... whaha... so long nv play... then we all back to chalet after that...

then we decide to cycle to anywhere of our choice... whaha.... then starting with my old hse... whahha.... went to that old park then cycle one rd... whahah.... then we cycle to tamp 201.. near my sec sch there and i have my toilet break and they brought water... ho ho...

oh ya.. forget to say about the ppl who went for this cycling trip.. me janis yichao timon benny hansheng... whahaa.... then cycle all the way to bedok revervior then cycle one rd... then we went back to chalet... all are super tired... usually janis... haha... cos she is the only ger with us... whahaa.... okay... we cycle back to aloha... and yichao kenny and benny went out and get charcoal... whahah... the other went to clean up themselve... to fresh up... we re start the fire... and there we go.... bbq the night and morning tru... some went to slp.. only left yichao benny kenny poon me hansheng.... we tok and eat... so fun... bbq until 6am hahaha... quite fun...

we start clearing up... and within awhile all clear.... haha.... by about 7+am... we all done and all so tired... when to slp... whahaa.... then about 8.30 i woke up and slowly all the other also wake up.... then 8.45... janis teng siong reine went home...

by 9+ all done... we call the guy and come and check and we left... ho ho ho.. that end the first part of my holi....

xOOx - 8:21:00 pm



Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)
Eamon

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

[Verse 1:]
See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you...now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

[Chorus:]
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

[Verse 2:]
You thought...you could
Keep this shit from me, yeh
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hack, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its all over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a ho

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

_________________

F.U.R.B. (F U Right Back)
Frankee

Oooh
Oooh
No no no

(You know there is two sides to every story)

See I don't know why your cryin' like a bitch
Talkin' shit like a snitch
Why'd you write a song 'bout me
If you really didn't care
You wouldn't wanna share
Tellin' everybody just how you feel

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jak
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jak
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all alone (ha ha ha ha)
I had to, to do your friend
Now you want me to come back
You must be smokin' crack
Im goin' else where and that's a fact

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack

Oh oh
Uh uh yeah

Oh oh
Uh uh yeah

Oh oh
Uh uh yeah

Oh oh
Uh uh yeah

You questioned did I care
Maybe I would have if you woulda gone down there
Now it's all over
But I do admit i'm glad I didn't catch ya crabs
I can't sweat that cause I got to go

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jak
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back.

Oh oh
Uh uh yea

Oh oh
Uh uh yea

Oh oh
Uh uh yea

Oh oh
Uh uh yea


xOOx - 10:51:00 am



too bo liao le.. whaha... go redo my blog template... whahah.... and i name it art of love... hehe.... haha.. the bg abit i dunno wad to say.... whahhaa... i download and edit abit.. whooo.... i am a stealer... wahahaha..... hmmmmm.... sian.. tml going to sch and have itp retest and then going for the chalet.. whaha... fun fun... whooo.... at least i will out of my hse for a few day...

i still dunno wad happened to the web host... hmmm... i need to see if it is ok tml... cos maybe the domain was pointed to 2 ips... hehe... i unpoint it from the other place liao... whahha... then waiting for it to restart... whaha....

that all... go and chat with my frens le... hmmmmm... haix... some what i having bad mood then i think i quarrel with peiyi... sorry leh... if u see this... gone... but i still wan back my snow angel... :p...

xOOx - 11:39:00 pm

hahha.... just gotta free webhost from my fren... whahaha... and try hard to install the blogging tool into the server.. lol... now i uploading the B2evolution... lol... the b2 janis told me to use... whaha... i dunno how to use... now trying... b2evolution.. see can or not.. wahha.... still new to this kind of tools... whaha....

and i need a job.... i need some cash... argh.... sian man.... the blogging tool is so sucky also... argh... i need help.....

i think i need to slp liao... kinda of tired liao... gone....

xOOx - 3:04:00 am



(3:50am) i just came back.... FUCKING DULAN.... argh.. with my parents.... im old enough already... please... im no more a small kid.... i know is my fault that i nv heard the calls.. because i left it silent without vibration... i know i worry you all.. but i already told u i will be late liao... wad lau... damn dulan... fuck fuck... stop treating me like a kid...

i just went out dinner with my fren at bedok... those who i know them since sec 1... those who i called them brothers... those who i went to when im down... those who i put them on top of YOU..... i tell them my xin shi then telling YOU... I have a good life since young... you two just like to quarrel... fuck off.... i wun forget that becos of stupid relative problem u 2 wan to fight...

making stupid calls... keeping the hp.... i hate you 2 alot... fucking alot... i nv been close to you all... im closer to my fren than you 2.... who care at the wrong time.... when im sad becos of somethings... i only can find my fren... cos i already lost the touch with you 2... since young.... when u two started quarreling...

to those reading.... if u think my family is good... then u are wrong.... how i wish that i have a happy family.... fuck la.... si bei dulan.... stop controling me... fuck off... fuck off.... chee bye.... argh.... fuck man.. i cant stand...

how i wish i can tok to someone now.... i fucking dulan.... sadded!!!!!!! argh.....

xOOx - 3:48:00 am



yeahhhhhhh... is holiday... and i shall have fun.. hehe.... lets talk about ytd cb paper first... shld i say ok or shld say not? i also dunno... but i shall pray that i pass can liao.... after that went to town with the guys and gal... whahah... we went to ps mac and have our lurch... lol.... then here come the biggest joke... whahaha... the white bear... whahaha..i laugh until stomach pain.... if u wan to know wad happened u shall ask han sheng.. lol

after that went to singapore shopping centre and play pool... haha... play for like 2+hr... then we took bus to cine... and walk ard chat ard then went to eat pm.... then tok tok tok... then jiafeng and poon toking about gers.. lol.... then the others there chat....

then after that... jiafeng hansheng benny and janis need to ciaoz... then left me poon timon and chao.... then we walk to topman... ho ho... got sales... hmmm.. but im kind of broke... haha... i think i need to work...those short term job... hehe... to cover some expenses....

today... 1st half of the day going to stay at home.. then at night going bedok 85 to have dinner with the usual 6... me jeff hj ys ray jerry.... post exam gathering... tok cock session.. lol....but meanwhile i shall be slacking.... haven eat my breakfast.... shalll go eat now.. hehe... bye...
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The Long Goodbye
Ronan Keating

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
(climbin' up a hill)

[Chorus]

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)

[Chorus]

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye

[Chorus x2]

The long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye

Someone please tell me why

Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Guess I'm never coming back again


xOOx - 11:10:00 am



oh my god... today was a slacking day for me... wan to study but no mood... like in holiday mood liao.. die... later must go study liao... hhee.... today stay at home and rot.... tmr will be the cb paper... after that... holiday... the staying of fun... ho ho.... wad shall we do tmr... lol..... let see.. lol...

just blog hopping... with the usual few.... someone steal one post... haha... and nv ask permission... trademark u know... lol.... whahaha... i going to sue u.. lol.... jk... whahhaa.... going to study liao gone....
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Hilary Duff
Hide Away

Hiding Away
Losin' my day
As if it doesn't really matter
Saying Goodbye
Scared to say why
Afraid it will shatter our world
Show me some faith now
Trust me somehow

Why are we keepin' our secret
Why are we hiding ourselves away
Everywhere we can hide away
I dont wanna fake it
I wanna make you believe, but i cant
I wont let you...hide away

Where do we go
How do we know
What we're ever really after
Sometimes it's clear
When you are here
Nothing can shatter our world
I need some faith now
To trust you somehow

Why are we keepin' our secret
Why are we hiding ourselves away
Everywhere we can hide away
I dont wanna fake it
I wanna make you believe but i cant
I wont let you...hide away

Maybe i, maybe i, maybe i'm losin'
Maybe i, maybe i, maybe i'm broken
Turn around, look around, go around in circles
Dont run away, drift away, dont hide away

Why are we keepin' our secret
Why are we hiding ourselves away
Everywhere you can, hide away
I dont wanna fake it
I wanna make you believe but i cant
Ohh but i cant
Believe what i said
I wont let you hide away, hide away

Hiding away, losin' my day
As if it doesn't really matter


xOOx - 8:32:00 pm



Swiveling Design


Turn around to a sensation in style with the spiral slide of our newest mobile. The SGH-P730 integrates a swiveling design for a twist of technology and a design with a difference. Creating new standards in mobile units, the SGH-P730 leads the industry with its design, camcorder and Megapixel camera. A color of light silver mirrors the bright outlook of this beauty as you flip it open to find the exceedingly attractive, premium design fits smoothly and easily into the palm of your hand with a true twist for your fashion revolution.


Futuristic Design


With a sharp looking, soft curved exterior, the SGH-P730 makes you a trend leader in technology. The SGH-P730 was designed to make a statement that you're a leader as it combines its sleek spin in design with Samsung's built-in digital camera and a high-quality TFD color screen, all in a futuristic and sophisticated handset.
The future of mobile communication is here for you.


Camcorder


Roll on with the sound the glory...The easy to carry SGH-P730's CIF capable camcorder also offers as you stay mobile and play with sound in full motion. Recording up to 60 minutes of motion, you can even record with a twist-the screen at a 90 degree angle-for a wider view. Then zoom in or pan out as you record with an 'in-motion' 4x video zoom. With an industry-high maximum quality CIF mode, the vibrant color and fluid motion of the shots will capture more than the clip. It'll tap into your imagination.


Megapixel Camera


An amazing view is all you'll see with your new Megapixel camera. The SGH-P730 functions as a Megapixel digital camera, taking perfect pictures every time. Just imagine the possibilities, photograph the close-ups and the cityscapes and see them with the crisp, clarity of true detail as you take the image of your mobile life to the outer limits with multishot, and enhancement features like fun frames and photo effects.


Video Wallpaper


The SGH-P730 supports a variety of wallpapers to catch your eyes, including not only stills, but also video wallpaper. You can catch the action as you stay mobile with sound and paste it as video wallpaper. Recall a special moment's beauty and let it greet your senses with every call.


Directional MIC


Tap into the possibility of Directional MIC for more vivid voices and sounds. Make it feel real. Combined with the camcorder, the Directional MIC's functionality will let you record your motion and voice clearly even as you move away from the phone. Say it in style and hear it better than ever with the SGH-P730.


262144 Color TFD Internal Screen


A view with a thrill...The incredible 262144 color TFD screen will flow from your 1.8" TFD screen to brighten the sight of all your adventures. View vivid images and video from your friends' exploits or the powerful built-in camera in all the detail you always desired. See every facet of your creations so you can catch the flaws and the strengths before you send it off or save it for remembrance.


64 Polyphonic Ringtones


Imageine the sound of a small symphony or your favorite singer calling out your tune in perfect harmony. The SGH-P730's 64 polyphonic ringtones will make your calls ring through in clarity. This 'best in the market' sound will make the difference clear as you relish the sound of the call to arms.


MP3 Player


Download the sound. Your favorite tracks are always with you as SGH-P730 is capable of carrying your MP3 files to track the night away.


MMS with Video Messaging


Sometimes the text isn't enough. When it comes to messages and the P730, there's more to video messaging than meets the eye. It enables you to send multimedia messages with text, voice, music, images and even video clips of up to 100KB per message. Send and receive video in comfort and let the SGH-P730 get your point across.


JAVA & 3D Games


Take a moment to relax and enjoy the pleasure of the SGH-P730. When entertainment is on your mind, experience Samsung's SGH-P730's Java MIDP 2.0 to unwind to the included games like Bubble Smile, Fun2Link and Mobile Chess or download new adventures for your ultimate enjoyment. You can also enjoy embedded 3D games such as Metalion, Bomb and Zio Golf.

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oh man... this fone... omg.... janis gave me the link to a site... and i saw this fone... omg.. who wan to be good to me... u shall buy this fone for me... thanks.. i will thanks u a million.... hehe

xOOx - 1:19:00 am


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